ZANE's CORNER

No one else...

2009-08-23T22:11:00.000+08:00

I know it has been a long while so i have decided to give you guys an update... hmmmm

I guess my last post probably on Mariah's "Obessed"... anyway her album will be out soon i think in september... ahhhh cant wait for it.... haha...

so what has been happening recently since june to august??? well heres an update...

Hillsong concert
Well during July i went for Hillsong concert held in expo hall 10... it was amazing and simply fantastic... the song are just so amazing... i wanna write like them... you guys should check out their song title "You hold me now" it is amazing... really God was, is and will continue to move in the lives of many... many people responded to alter call... Praise God

No one else
Well this is one of the youth project in my church... for a cd recording... i had my recording in June and recently on the 2 of AUG we had a concert to promote the album... i have learn so much throughout this period musically as well as spiritually... remember this famous phrase from one of my friends there "Blessed are the flexible for they will not be broken" haha love this phrase... oh yes i am really grateful for all my friend who came to the concert... hope you guys enjoyed the song, music and sharing... it is really inspiring that some of you guys have came for my concert back to back in June and august... i am really grateful... Thank you Jesus... this is my biggest concert so far hope it will just get bigger... I am also thankful how this concert gave my friends a view of how church is like... Jesus be glorified :D

Who Cares
Just yesterday i just perform another song at one of my friend church carnival... the song is titled "Who cares" i really love how the song came about... love the tune, words and story behind how it is in a context of a student... HOW COOL IS THAT!!!!... Truely Jesus i know You care...

So whats next for me??? well only God knows... but as for now it is A level time... :D

"Lord for i ask for wisdom and knowledge upon me and my friends... grant us the capacity to absorb what we need to know and also the grace that we heavily depend... help all of us to fulfill the purpose You have for us... May You be glorified in all we do... In Jesus name... Amen"

"Obsessed" by Mariah Carey is out :D

2009-06-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

Enjoy :D

God bless :D

WOW MY FIRST EVER PUBLIC PERFORMANCE!!!!!

2009-06-03T16:33:00.003+08:00

WOW i cant believe it!!! yesterday was my very first ever public performance... and it is SO SO FUN!!!!!!!! Thank You Jesus for making it all wonderful :D i want to do it all over again :D hehe... Well i wanna thank all my teachers and friends for coming down today... LOove ya lots!!!! hehe

Well throughout this past 1 month plus preparing for this gig, i have learnt so so much... really musically and spiritually... I am so thankful and grateful to everyone involve in this whole production... Thanks guys... every single one of you people are just super talented :D

Haha i am also grateful that i went down to take my exam before the gig... that i didnt skip it... because frankly the paper is really rather do-able...hehe

haha i am just so happy that really spoke my heart out yesterday during the message sharing before the song... well anyway, to my friends who came yesterday, i was not refering to you guys... you guys are just an awesome bunch... lets hangout again :D hehe.... YES and our randomness ended just on the Singapore flyer... hehe it is my first time on the flyer... and it is so fun...plus it is only $10... haha yes i know right!!!! so cool....ahhhhh believe i still not recovered from the fun yesterday!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaha....

yes moving on.... anyway i overslept this morning.... i totally didnt hear my alarm....funny or WHAT?!... i really wanted to attend econs lesson partly because i love the subject and plus i really wanna ace my econs... i feel bad... but i will catch up tomorrow...

Yea anyway it is time to really to start studying full force... since now SYF and everything else have ended... so yea.... Lord help me through...

Anyway... MARIAH HAS AN NEW UP COMING SONG!!!!! AND IT IS JUST SUPER NICE!!!!! I CANT WAIT FOR THE WHOLE SONG TO BE OUT.... AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! IT IS SUPER DUPER NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So yea listen to it.... only 31 seconds :D

Finally....

2009-05-23T06:18:00.003+08:00

I finally did it... passed my nafa :D first time in my 3 years in MI.... THANK YOU JESUS...
on top of that i broke my personal record... YAY... i wanna try below 10min :D
I am just so happy... hard work will pay off...

Also recent rehearsals, i have learnt alot... so much... i learn personally i have been at time too caught up with the technical parts of the song, until i forgot why did i even choose that song... somehow today in class that song came so real to me... kinda teared a little but one thing stays true... He loves me.....

Also now that SYF and opening is over... it is time to pick up in my studies... Lord help me....

"Thank You Lord for believing in me,
When no one else did...
Thank You for being with me,
When i stood alone...
Thanks You for lifting me,
When no one shared my pain...
To You.... i am always grateful....."

I know there is a rainbow,
for me to follow... to get beyond my sorrows...
Thunder, precedes the sunlight...
so i'll be alright... if i can find that rainbows end...

Shorty updatey

2009-04-27T00:00:00.004+08:00

Ok 1 more week to SYF yes in fact 9 more days to be exact... YES tell me all about it.

"Lord let me not turn back to my old ways,
Give me discipline to maximise my time wisely...
Give me strength to face up with my failures,
For my hope rest in You...
You will turn mourning into dancing,
my sorrows into Joy....
In the days of my trouble,
You will keep and hide me in Your tabernacle...
I will sing and make music to the Lord... Amen"

God loves ugly...

Ok it has been super duper ultimate long!!!!!!!

2009-04-19T19:09:00.002+08:00

It is so long till i dont know where to start... haha lol hmmmm ok first from the most recent ones...

1) Dance
Congrates to the dance team in my school for clinching gold for SYF... truely they are the golden girls!!! Fantastic....

2) Band
Past few days band have been rather intensive... but really from the bottom of my heart, i dont mind because i find myself really growing and improving in in my playing... haha i am really enjoying myself... HAHA

3) Singing
Well i am very thankful to God for the many opportunities coming up... anyway for those who are reading this you are invited to this gig on the 2nd of June... hehe hope your will come and enjoy... Let me know and i will tell your more about it :D

4) hmmm gonna go random...
Yea school for the next few months is going to go really tough and i must and will prep myself for every and any obstacles that will be coming... Lord be my strength...

5) Trancendance
Well guess what this is my third trancendance... haha and this time if possible i might be singing chinese song... yes i know right CHINESE song... hopefully i can do a good one... haha

6) i met up with my secondary school mates... the TREE family... haha we have not met up for more than half a year but really i am so grateful that even though we didn't end on a good note last year but we have reconciled and i am so touched by them so much... lets meet up and make music together mum and sis :D

Ok this is really random...
I love God, mum, friends, Mariah Carey, Brett Manning and so many others... period....

"Lord i commit my ways into Thy hands,
Guide me on for the next few months...
Help me to maximise my time for studies and music,
Stretch my Spirit to do exceedingly and beyond my expectation...
Lord i love you, and glorify Your name...
In Thy name i trust..."

If you can use anything Lord... You can use me....

So much happening...

2009-03-20T23:37:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps, it been rather long...i guess haha

So what been happening for my 1 week break...

First up was band on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday which is today... throughout band i have learnt to be discipline and really.... listen more than i speak... I realise that there is still so much i don't know about music and of course so much to be learnt... :D

Secondly, I am very happy that i passed my church audition YAY!!!!! even though i had no confidence due to my stage fright which is really tying me down... i must and will learn to rise above it... Amen

Thirdly, I didn't went for Transcendence audition because of dry cough... Well it is quite saddening as i really wanna perform... its my last year in MI so i wanna contribute what i can give to the school for its support and thank the wonderful teachers i have... so i pray that i will recover and please have a second audition.. hehe

Fourthly, I learnt of the many blessing that i have... and often take it for granted...

Yup that's all for tonight... more to come... :D

"You are my Light and my Salvation,
Whom shall i fear?"

Okie 45min to Kickboxing....

2009-03-14T12:17:00.004+08:00

some reflection...

Yesterday the pre-U 3 had a motivational seminar and DANG!!!! it is FUN like HACK!!! all of us enjoyed ourselves... even though i started the day with a pinch of negativity which i am sorry for... but who knows, the entire programme went to a HYPE!!! i got to know so much about myself and about my friends and really it is very motivating... but ultimate fun part was the last part where we were blind folded and go through a series of obstacles... we had trust and communication... dang it was fun!!! I love my CLASS... period the best class i have ever had... I love you people... haha

Then came band... really band is getting fun... as i see myself improving in playing piccolo i really enjoy playing it now... hehe just pray that i dont go flat... lol

then had dinner with a crazy friend of mine... haha who puts sugar on their fries and BURGER????!!!!!!!!!! even though with all the madness... it was still crazily fun...

okie that's all for now... gonna kick some butt...lol

Wow its been really long...

2009-03-12T21:55:00.002+08:00

So there have been lots of happening in school... which i am going to update you guys... its been half a month... lol thats so long...

Common Test
Firstly i had my common test about 2 weeks backs... got back my results... was not really happy as i did not reach my targets but still i am thankful that at least i maintained my grades for 1 and an improvement in another. I will work harder for the prelim 1... my goals will and must be met... Amen

H1 A levels
Well got back my result... although i passed my math which i am eternally grateful for... but i wanted better grades... anyway still i thank God for everything :D

Band
Band is going to get rather demanding in days to come... in fact it started... fridays practice is till 9pm... so i really got to rest up and get myself prepared...

Some personal update
Well i signed up for trancendance but frankly i dont know what songs i wanna sing...lol i have the back tracks already but still i can make up my mind... however for church audition, i have prepared a song but i cant make it due to kick boxing on saturday so hopefully i can get rescheduled....

Well past week i have not been feeling positive, things have been rather dull for me... i may not show it... but yes i am not feeling good... even my health was rather affected too...

But anyway i am feeling so much better now... haha

yes so thats for now... i am gonna hybernate... didnt hybernate enough...lol

"Lord go before me and set my path straight,
Walking in Your ways... always"

Week updates...

2009-02-15T22:57:00.003+08:00

Hello people so here is a update on what had happen the past week... I will first list the "troubling things" then to the happy things...

Troubling things
1) Firstly thins have not been smooth for me throughout this week... in terms of results for homework well i didn't do very well... i really don't know why... I have never got such bad results for my GP essay and despite me putting in effort, i still didn't do well... It is extremely frustrating... but i know this is something i must work on and improve... I will improve... but really i don't know what is the purpose of reading my mark to the class??????

2) Secondly after chatting with my friend, i was reminded how one of my friends like impose his personal standards and compare it with me... seriously the world in itself is pretty tough already, i don't need this friend to tell me how i should carry myself and judge me according to his standards...

because(this is to that specific person),

"i don't really know you on a personal level... so seriously, you should get over your insecurities about yourself... because you don't get anything by bringing others down... get over yourself... grow up...period"

I am really sorry i really have to vent my frustration... but really before we make any comment, make sure it is constructive... i really cant stand how that friend thinks he is such a man when compared to some of my friends... he may not verbalise it, but really, the way he judges them... says it all...

But really it is my fault, about the way i grew cold towards him... as i know that the way i handled the issue was not really not gonna make it any better... That i am really sorry for...

anyway away with all these sad stuff... lets move on and get happy :D

Happy stuff
1) firstly band orientation was fun... although i must admit how i first dreaded there... but someone when the thing started everyone was just into it... it is really fun... Thanks CY :D The year ones were really nice...

2) secondly, i must say i felt that i have accomplished something... i felt that i have accomplished something in PE... due to my past leg injuries, i was on a very long term MC so i didn't get to run...but now that i can, i am running again... i really love running alot...

Saturday
3) Thirdly, i went for Kickboxing this week... yay and it is fun... gonna take up level 2 after this course ends... i didn't went last week due to my lateness and all... but really i enjoyed myself alot...

4)After that i went for my favourite lesson... in fact the one i look forward to every week... That's voice lesson with my coach... He lessons are summed as fun, encouraging, insightful, helpful and i really learn alot!!! what's best are the improvements :D... despite the stressful week, he is able to just motivate me and encourage me... I am so thankful to God for a teacher like him... Thank you Jesus...

5) After Voice lesson i met my godma, she is soooo nice to me... she brought me to eat, karaoke and gave me my belated angbao... she is sooo sweet...

Sunday
6)Church today was fun... i learnt alot and of course had fellowship... we shared our jokes, lunch together... Thankful to have a family in Christ like them... also i borrowed two books from Church library... really forward to it give an answer to some of life tough question... hehe

So as mentioned despite all the storm and waves that sometime thing just get a too tough, He will never fail make the pain go away...

So here's an update on upcoming things...

1)common test the week after next on the 23/2
2)Cat exams on the 11/4
3) SYF...

Yup that's all for now... God bless :D

"I need Thee,
Oh i need Thee...
Every hour, i need Thee...
Bless me now, my Saviour...
I come to Thee..."

Very very happy...

2009-02-09T00:54:00.002+08:00

here is a short update on yesterday and today

Voice Lesson
I am so happy, lessons were FANTASTIC!!! I am so grateful to God... I learned so much and i was really encouraged to keep improving... Really Brett's associate are just so good!!! ... I will only go to Brett and his associates for voice lessons... I am so so so happy... Thank you Jesus...

Class BBQ
Following that i went for the class bbq it was fun as i got to chat with friends and have a good laugh... HAHA Really miss some of my classmates...

Steamboat at friends house
Well after Church, we over to one of our friends house and we had steamboat... YAY!!! Yum yum... really nice to have lunch with a big group of bro and sis in Christ...

Upcoming stuff
So here a short update
1)CAT exams this coming Saturday
2) Class test on Monday and Tuesday
3)Common test coming up really soon...

"You are the Potter,
I am the clay..."

It's been awhile...

2009-02-04T21:21:00.002+08:00

So since the last blog update, things has not been rather smooth...

To start with on the Thursday after CNY, i was kinda lectured by my GP teacher... frankly, i am rather scared of him... I know it is my fault that my essay was really badly done... It is quite expected with only little and last minute effort, i cant ask for much... so for my second essay i really put in alot of effort... hopefully i will do well...

So moving on from that i had a few test of which i did badly... it is rather depressing... but really i have no one else to blame, but myself for the little effort placed in it...

Lord teach me to have self-discipline and not repeat the same mistake i have done...

So learning and moving on from my failures, here are the things i look forward...

Cat exams
So my CAT exam is next Saturday, this time i will make sure i will be prepared... This is my desire...

2 weeks later, Common test
I have to take it seriously to gage myself in terms of how much i know and need to improve from there... Lord grant me Thy wisdom...

Voice lesson
I really look forward to have voice lesson with one of Brett's associate this Saturday :D Really this is extremely exciting for me... plus i want to become a associate too :D Thank you Jesus for the opportunity...

Giving thanks
This year started with many things i want to give thanks...
Frankly after "floating" around pretty much alone... i finally have settled in my current church where there is so much loving and caring people... again God really open doors and His cup of blessing will overflow...

also i have get to know more friends that i know that influence me positively... really grateful...

Yea so that's all for now...

"I'll walk with You,
Wherever You go...
Through tear and joy,
I'll trust in You... Jesus"

Happy Chinese New Year

2009-01-26T23:49:00.002+08:00

Ok today is Chinese New Year (CNY)... and i really enjoyed my time in Church and after that at a friends place... so fun...

Ok here a short update for last week...

Ok practically last week was rather busy with School CNY performance on Friday, followed by Helping in my friends church on Saturday and today's Church item...pretty much like a relay... though it can get a little tiring but for Him it is all worth it... plus i really really enjoyed myself with all the singing rehearsals... :D

Yesterday, i hang out with 2 of my besties too... we talked, laughed and enjoyed ourselves so so much... really i enjoyed myself... We should do this again...

Yea so anyway when school starts, things should get moving as it is before CNY... I really enjoyed myself throughout the break so now it is time to pick up the pace again and stride forward... God with You, all thing are possible...

"Lord for this New Year,
Help my grow and learn...
Teach me the things i cannot understand,
Help me to love those who put me down...
Guard me from the worldly influences,
and lastly help my love You more... In Jesus Name... Amen"

Its been long...

2009-01-16T23:40:00.002+08:00

Ok its been rather long since i last blogged...

ok first

Start of school
Well the start of school to me mean a fresh start where all of us should put in our 110% in our studies... this is our final year and really the last lap... we will and must make it...

Banding of subjects
So there is now banding in terms of our subjects and as a result i dont get to be taught by my pre u 2 teachers BUT... I know that God will knows what is best for me... Indeed He knows... i am enjoying my classes so much now! really i do... i feel so.... Fresh...

So that all for now...

"God help me find balance and i thank You for all the plans You have in store for me"

"Trees" by Keiko Matsui

2009-01-04T22:36:00.003+08:00

Well i have been learning piano pieces First there was "Bella's lullaby" from "Twilight" and now learning "Trees" by Keiko Matsui... MAN it is very nice...

"Trees" by Keiko Matsui

Well i i have been Youtubing about "Twilight" and i am still all over it... HAHA but seriously this movie is FANTASTIC!!! i really love it... one of the BEST movie i have watched... Fantastic... i mean the acting is soooo real... like i could really fall in love...

I also wanna learn how to sing the song "Decode" by Paramore for "Twilight"
Really really nice!!!

So tomorrow is when Diploma starts... Excited!!! Not sure how will the lesson be like since it is computer based...

Today i was able to calm my mind while playing the soothing piece "trees" on the piano... i am still pretty much in the holiday mood... and i need to settle my mind down today... and i did :D

So that all for now... will probably blog tomorrow with regards to how the lesson went...

Thank You Jesus for the gift of music...

after Sunday...

2009-01-04T00:31:00.003+08:00

Ok it is like 20min to 1.... GUESS WHAT???!!!! I CLEARED MY TABLE!!!!!!!! Yea tell me ALL about it!!! seriously like in super, duper, uuber long!!!since i cleared my table.. like seriously... but now that it is cleared i feel so much happier... ok 1 more days to start of diploma... :D

That's all for today :D God bless...

2 of Jan...

2009-01-03T00:04:00.002+08:00

3 more days to start of my Diploma and 10 more for school... Feeling kinda excited :D yet slightly nervous at the same time as to what will things be like when school starts... but i am awaiting...

By the way here's a video i got to share... by Hillsong "Nothing but the Blood"
Sang by: Brooke Fraser

And MAN!!! her voice sound so soothing... Plus the song is absolutely meaningful and true... Got to hear this song... Enjoy :D

"Oh precious is that flow,
that makes me white as snow...
No other fount i know,
nothing but the blood of Jesus..."

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

2009-01-01T15:30:00.004+08:00

Ok firstly happy new year to EVERYONE!!! at the same time good bye 2008... Lets learn from 2008 and reach for a better 2009 :D

Reflections
throughout 2008 life have been rather hectic personally for me especially in the beginning and the end of 08... First 3 month took part in MANY activities... internal and external of school... following that end of year with my H1's A levels exams...

Throughout this years journey... life also has it's ups and downs... but i learnt to brave through it and holding tight to what you believe... and of course discipline to improve and succeed... Of course not to mention, the world has face its fair share of problem... like natural disasters etc...

2008 to me is rather an interesting year... as i have gain understanding and knowledge of how to work with people around us... especially with project work i know that we have learnt more about each other as classmates or even friends...

Misses and loves also goes out to all my friends whom we have not seen or talk to each other for a long time... miss your...

Lastly i want to thank God for pulling me through 2008... i know that without him i probably will not be able to make...

"Thank you Jesus for guiding and blessing me with blessing i can never comprehend... for comforting me when things hurts, for Your everlasting comforting presence, for Your promises when i face discouragement... to You Lord i am eternally grateful... Amen"

2009
Ok moving on to 2009... i spend my count down not at marina bay or any of my friends house... but AT CHURCH!!!

this is my first countdown in church, it was not really plan but since my friends invited me to celebrate it there so i went...

At church they shared about the growth of the church and man...it has grew alot without really me noticing it... Thank God...

Resolution
For 2009 there are lot of things i wanna accomplish... not to mention it is also the year very much the cross road whether i get into University or not...

Here are a few accomplishment that i want
1)Be the best that i can be( God continue to stretch me)
2)Have more discipline in everything i do
3)DO WELL FOR A LEVEL!!!
4) Sing better/ improve Vocally :D
5) Be a better person...

Motto for this year..."Dreams come true"

"Lord i commit 2009 into Thy hands"

Its been while...

2008-12-30T14:09:00.002+08:00

Ok firstly MERRY CHRISTMAS to all... i know i have not been posting.... but heres a short update....

Mind's CAFE
Ok went out with 2 of my besties... and dang!!! it was super fun!!! seriously Mind's cafe is a place i will recommend to all... they have lots of games to play at a affordable price... Certainly a very good way to bond :D....

hmmm...

School's Start
Ok as we all know, school is starting pretty soon... for mine is on the 12th... but technically, because i have diploma as well thus mine will start on the 5th... actually surprisingly as much as some of my friend dreads the start of school, i myself am actually quite excited.... because frankly even though i have lots of time to do lots of personal stuff but really...i also want the start of school... i mean during this hols, things have been moving rather slow... beside diploma exams and band concerts and some stuff... things have been moving rather slowly...

i think its time to pick up the pace... A levels is next year... the final lap... We can make it...

TWILIGHT!!!!!!

2008-12-17T20:53:00.002+08:00

Ok seriously, Twilight is soooooo nice!!! really it is.. i mean the love story and the vampire thingy is soooooo cool!!!!

ok moving on....

Yesterday's practice went well, i would say that i am most focused yesterday out of all practices... So tomorrow is the big and the real thing... God bless all of us... We will do a GOOD job!!!! :D yes we will....

Past few days have rather hectic with all the practice going on, it is certain that i am tired when i reach home daily but it is all worth it... I have learned new things everyday... and i would say my playing have improved YAY!!!

Ok i will blog tomorrow or something...

"O come all ye faithful"

TIRED!!!

2008-12-14T00:25:00.001+08:00

Ok i am feeling so so tired... I think i need to go back to hybernating... Really i need to... Frankly i personally cannot stand not having enough sleep... it kinda spoils my day... Ok gonna sleep now... Take care :D

Band tomorrow...

2008-12-12T23:16:00.004+08:00

Ok so exactly about 5 more days to my band concert... So here is a reminder if your wanna come there is still tickets... just contact me yea... :D Thanks do come support...

Nice???

2008-12-11T16:32:00.004+08:00

This is my new blog skin thanks to BZM!!! hehe... the skin is really fresh and i really really like it :D

ok... so a short short update...

So yesterday was my T10 diploma paper and it was rather ok... besides not knowing what the question wanted in Q3... other than that, its ok....

So after paper, we went to Carl's Junior... LOVE THE BURGER!!!! even though it took us quite alot to get there( in terms of time) but it was worth it :D Guacamole burger... i love you...

Next, with my exams ending means the start of my practice for my band concert next week... got to really start practicing... hmmm yea i must...

Yesterday, on my way back i had a rather nice chat with a friend of mine... We talk we laughed and we shared... i learn that even though the world may not be as nice as it is, we tend to face up with certain problems but as long as we take it in a positive light... we can make it through the rain... anyway if you are reading this... nice chat with you...

So tomorrow, band resumes... something which i cant wait...

hmm so that all for now...

"A constant friend is He"

WOW its been while...

2008-12-04T00:16:00.002+08:00

Ok to start off, i must say that i am very happy and at the same time bored with certain issues...

Ok the happy part is that, throughout the November, it has been a very healthy one for me... totally love the exercising routine... definitely gonna keep it up!!! thanks to you my buddy :D

plus i got the things i wanted for a very very long time!!! YAY Thanks to my mentor :D

also throughout this month i have very much to discern with regards to many issues, learning from them and not allowing it affecting you.. :P really i realise that every day is a learning process. Keep an open mind, and you will never know how much you can learn... From discerning the right friends one should have to having the right mindset towards life...

Thanks to my diploma teacher, he has really given more than a lecture... in fact his life in the business world certainly will benefit me in the future...

sooo... cat exam starts next week... revision must start too....

Recently i have also been catching up with my close buddies.... we shared, we poured and we laugh... and really times like these are memorable, just wish that i can have them 24/7.. hehe i am rather greedy...

However sometimes i am rather tired of having repeat the routine of going to school and having to face up with all the superficial laughter and conversation that often holds no substance... and i know i may sound senseless... but really i regret quarrelling with close friend and eventually parts ways with my besties like the "tree family" and my 9 year friend... because friends like them are just so freaking hard to find... DANG!!! i regret!!! freaking hack regret!!!

God if possible bring them back into my life...

Well at least all is not soooo bad after all... When one door closes, another opens... i found another... in any case all i can say is treasure all the friends you have and take none for granted... Love thy neighbour as thyself...

ok sooo moving on... coming to band... 2 more weeks to concert... band practice have been hilarious especially with the section members i have... band will never be boring especially with self entertaining friends like them... HAHA!!!!!! love them all!!! every time i think of them... i just feel like laughing...

SO Christmas is coming!!! YAY!!!!!! great!!!! love Christmas carols...and presents and not forgetting the birth of my beloved Saviour :D

Ok i know this post is rather all over the place.. i wrote it in a spur of moment... so....don't hate me while reading :D

" God bring grant me the serenity of mind,
peace to soul,
the wisdom to understand,
patience to learn,
strength to percervere,
Lastly, love to overcome all fears..."

My hands...

2008-11-23T00:36:00.002+08:00

ok David Archuleta has this new song "My Hands" it is freaking nice!!! i love the flow of the song like how the lyrics connects.... really really good!!!

sooo today's Church Worship went very well :D there is really much to learn from alot people... remember to keep an open mind, and you will be surprised to how much you can learn from others... there is this lady PHD in MUSIC!!!!!!! LIKE seriously, playing the piano is like simply moving her fingers!!! it comes sooooo easily for her!!!!!!!!

yea so...that's it for today... gonna sleep now :D God bless...

"Let love rule..."

i'm sitting down here... but hey you cant see me....

2008-11-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

ok just came back from church practice and man it is really fun!!!!!! even though i don't know much of the people there but at least they are really friendly... :D so tomorrow is the actual performance :D

hmmm what else... oh yes diploma, well it is definitely getting tougher... but thankfully it is related to my A level course which can help in me too.... YUP!!!

what else... oh yes diploma exams is in like 19 day??? less than 3 weeks... time to start revising...

hmmm what else... oh yes publicity for my band and ake...

Musique Unifiante
Band and Anklung concert
Date: 18 december
Place: Republic Polytechnic
Price: 8, 12 and 20

YES!!! come and support!!! tickets are for sale now... just let me know :D

"Boys meets girl and look in her eyes,
time stand still and two hearts catch fire..."

Beginning of something new...

2008-11-19T00:09:00.002+08:00

Ok its been more than a week since i blogged... so here is a short update...

Now that exams is over, i am enjoying myself...although i must say that i am getting really sick of the game "diablo" so i think i will stop in no time... which i think is a good think for me...

On top of that my diploma have officially started, and i must say that this module is the best of all, i mean the lecturer has his own humor like saying "Come on" frequently in his lecture HAHA!!!! Band practice has also been rather hectic... as the concert is coming up...

But one happy thing is that this "holiday" for me has been a very very healthy one... hehe... been exercising rather frequent... Must keep it up... So my motto for this year end is "lose the tummy, lose the shirt"

Next i am also very happy that i am going to co lead worship in of my friends church... Praising Jesus through each trial...

what else........

oh end count down party... so some of your know that i am invited to perform at this event held i think in boonlay with other artist but they wanted videos of me performing but of all those weren't really up to standard so i suggested that they allowed me to go through an audition instead which i prefer too... so meanwhile please pray for that they will accept my request for audition... hehe thanks:D

Another thing, this years X factor season, is a very strong one... lots of really good singer, should check it out...

hmmmm???? what else.....

oh ya.... Christmas is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my favourite festival of all!!! love it.... love it.... words cant express how much i just love Christmas!!!!!!.....The birth of my Saviour....

"Friend's who pray together,
stays together..."

Exams are over!!!!!

2008-11-10T01:39:00.002+08:00

Ok exams are finally over... can finally enjoy myself... as for the results... God bless :D

i have already started enjoying :D hehe...

So past few days have been diablo-ing, badmintoning and gym... hehe (ya me-gym...) my goal before next year is to lose about 5 kg... and i will be very very very happy....

tomorrow on the other hand is class chalet!!! well really anticipating towards tomorrow... however i feel like i am going to fall sick, due to all this late nights and all...

also band is going to resume...

hmmm what else?????

I think that is it...

"Many friends i have, but few are true,
some aren't sincere, i wish they knew...
ask me not, for i will not tell,
as i wish them well..."

Noel... Noel

2008-10-29T21:58:00.003+08:00

Ok no particular meaning involved... i tend to sing Noel... Noel when i am nervous... LOL

So tomorrow is Chinese A level's the first A level paper i am actually going to take... but what make me worried the most is my math which is next Tuesday... Lord help me

So from now till then i need lots of grace and prayers...

From tomorrow onwards math will be my girlfriend for the next 6 days(like many of my friends for WR)... then i will probably dump her for another girl called "OP".... :D so from now till then, i am going to be quite a heart breaker :D.... lol lame...

Music update
Ok MC's new single "I Stay In Love" music video is out! YAY!!!!

Dang the song is just so emotional love it to the max... one magazine said that it is like the next "We Belong Together"... Love ya Mariah!!!

anyway here's another fantastic singer...i will definitely miss him...Jan Werner...

Lord Thy wisdom i need...

Tired

2008-10-25T02:28:00.002+08:00

Well past few days have been rather tired due to WR and stuff... but the good thing is that, WR is over... now left with OP and I and R... Thank God :D

So now moving on to A levels, next week is MT followed by math the week after... i know right, tell me about it... HAHA really got to "chiong" like never before... :D

Emotions
Well i am feeling rather happy though i am tired... not sure why... HEHE but in any case i am happy...

The joy of the Lord is my strength...

Friends
Well recently saw my beloved "Mua Chee" sista... miss her so much... we should start hanging out after my H1 A levels...

"Whom have i in heaven...but You,
There's none i desire besides you..."

I need...

2008-10-16T07:01:00.001+08:00

FOCUS AND DISCIPLINE....

Lord grant me the focus, discipline and wisdom needed to run this lap...

2008-10-11T23:50:00.003+08:00

All glory to Your name,
All honour to Your majesty...

Hello people :D

2008-10-05T22:40:00.002+08:00

ok so its been quite awhile of stuff going recently, so i didnt really have the time to post about anything...

School
Well school has been really fun... i feel that i have been learning alot... especially math and Chinese... i am growing to love these subjects more and more...

Weight lose
Ok i after some strict dieting and exercising, i have LOST WEIGHT!!!!! YAY!!!! i wanna lose more... about 5 kg then i am very very happy... hehe....

Pw
Ok these few days, PW is really taking its toll on me... but i know for the A's sake, it is all worth it...

Promotion Exercise
Ok this wednesday is the Promotion exercise... i really want to get promoted... i am studying hard now and i will study even harder next year....

God grant me the desires of my heart...

1 Month left...

2008-09-30T00:25:00.005+08:00

Well today is the start of the math banding, i must say things are going well... i want this to last throughout this one month... :D

Ok so what to blog???? hmmmm i am not sure actually just have this "rushy" feeling due to the H1 A levels coming soon... but i would think this as positive as it reminds me that there isn't time to waste... only one month left... not much time... :)

I wanna thank all the teachers that have in the hard work throughout this year too...

What else??????

oh F1... ok i didn't exactly see the F1 race except through my friends phones that has a 5 second clip besides that i only heard the sound of the race in NLB and man it is LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO SO SO LOUD!!! i was like up in 11 story and still could hear it!

Music
alright recently the song "Crush" by David Archuleta has been in my mind because it is soooooo nice!!!!!!!!!!

Yea i think that's all for tonight... got to sleep early to face tomorrow :D

"Lord Thy wisdom gives me strength,
give me the discipline that i lack and need... Amen"

i know this crush ain't going away...

Its Over... :(

2008-09-27T11:10:00.002+08:00

Ok recently one of my favourite couple from soap opera "Holley oaks" have ended AHHHHHH!!!!!!! i want more of them! dang dang dang!!! Love the show so much...

Well yesterday my Econs gave back the teacher back this test paper that we have done in our CA and i did very badly! I don't know i just cant to seem to do well like in year one...

Moving on, on the better side, i went on a trip with my Favourite Chinese Teacher to this Japanese tomb to check it out and relate to our text books and get a experience of the place... that was really fun... on our way back many thing happen, like my freaking on gave up on me! the buttons suddenly froze and the phone is only good for picking up calls... THAT'S IT!!!! went to pongol then went to City Hall after the long travelling at least we got to study a little while and thank goodness it was productive :D

Promos
So now for promos i am feeling rather calm( a little worried though)... but in any case i will work on my math and mother tongue... must do well for my H1 no matter what!

Thoughts and emotions
Well i have been feeling rather free these days... really don't wanna be tied down by things or people, guess thing like this will only happen when you learnt to face it...

Ok tonight's blogging...

2008-09-24T00:02:00.003+08:00

alright... here is a little short log before i go to sleep...

Well tomorrow is the start of school again... i am feeling happy and little reluctant at the same time... but in any case i think i still just have to go and hopefully things wont be saddening...

Well tomorrow i heard that there is actually some sort of post activities etc... i just wish that i dont want to get back my results that soon... haha...

moving on... tonight is actually the one day where i wanted to hang out with my mum, so as usual i bugged her to bring me out haha...

dont know why but recently i just feel quite weird and everything seems very weird... I just feel at times things may change and i may not be able to catch up or adapt with it... hmmm something must be done...

Lord my God to you i pray,
Sanctify my heart, soul and ways
for none like You have i seen,
never will i forsake you for sin...
my prayer to You shall stay true,
for theres none i want but You...

"There can be miracle,
when you believe...
though hope is frail,
it's hard to kill...
who knows what miracle,
you can achieve...
when you believe,
somehow you will...
you will when you believe..."

fun fun fun :D

2008-09-23T17:31:00.003+08:00

Well yesterday was rather fun... hang out with friends and all :D even though during the journey there was a little sparks here and there but overall it is actually very fun...

Trip to town
I bought new shoes and a rather funny pencil box... hehe very happy but still could be happier if i bought the heel cup for my heels :D still very fun... but somehow my wallet was crying, i spent nearing 90 dollars... but it is still worth it... hehe

New guitar
Ok i know i am a feeling cranky or something, but i feel like buying a classical guitar technically to harden my skin to play the semi acoustic guitar... i have one but it hurts like... (you know)... so i think i will just get a cheap one... but overall i will se first... :D

Message brought
Well with regards to my last post which officially is my most PISSED Post but still i am really glad that people have got my message but really try not to contact me now or you will get a verbal assult so for now just back off :D

Cranky me
Ok i know that school is starting officially tomorrow but i know that the past few days of holiday's has its ups and downs... but still i must admit that i have cranky especially in the way i talk or maybe at times i may be little hostile in conversation with things i firmly believe in... i'm sorry and i know i could have brought it out i nicer manner.... plus i fel that even though i have went out but i still feel that i have somehow not utilised my holidays to the max... :( So in any case i must start preparing for my H1 A levels...

Feelings and emotions
I really dont know why have been rather emo this few days... just somehow want to be alone at times... I think i am more of a free spirit recently, meaning i may not stick to a certain group when hanging out as i wanna open myself to different people... i realise that if you dont open yourself up to the people around, you may miss out alot...

Games
good news, i am totally sick and tired of playing Diablo... YES!!!! so no worries of me sleeping late just to level up and all...hehe

Missing people
Well i must admit that there are people whom i am missing right now but due to school and stuff we tend not to be able to catch and have fun... not to mention that this always happens when people are attached... well i cant blame them, this is life... get real...

Musically
Well due to me being cranky resulted in me reallying being extremely defensive over musician i love like Mariah Carey... I mean i am fine with people expressing their opinions on about singers/artist but i cant stand when they criticise... so on youtube i actually rebutted those who compared MC to other artist like Maddonna negatively...so i had to REBUTT(i am ok with different artist and their music but dont ever insult MC... cause i will snap back real hard) you may find my comment in youtube under "zannyzanezane89"... HAHA i have never been like this, so i guess this is what being a fan of someone feels like... :D however take note it is not obsession... because really i love MC for her voice, and songs that she writes to encourage people and actually have saves lifes... recent youtubing, i have found fans who thanked MC for her songs that brought them strength and sailed them through tough times...thats the power of music...

Well this is quite alot for today... maybe more tonight depending on how i am feeling...

expressions...

2008-09-21T22:44:00.002+08:00

well i have something to say well it is targeted towards my secondary school friends... firstly i must say that people tend to forget each other when some people come back to their lives and somehow in one way or another, you tend to be left out.. well provided if you were even close friends to them in the first place... haha well anyway i could not care less, but to state things, i am not jealous of anything but i just hope that you will come to realisation that, that's not the way to treat your friends... take recent teachers day for example you guys didn't even ask me along... HA! so much for tree family... secondly, recent birthday you guys didn't tell me about it... maybe there may people whom i am not so keen to see but still You particularly being my "friend" could actually let me know where were your going to celebrate... in anycase i don't know why i am talking about this but man what are blogs for??? EXPRESSION!!!

So in any case please don't you ever dare to treat me like spare tire(in replacement of someone)... because you can simply loose my number... and if you reading this(i hope you are) i hope you get what i mean... and i mean it...

Well maybe a tiger really never changes its strips...

Poison milk
i believe recent milk incidents have really gave us quite a shock... really disappointed with these people... for money they will do such stuff to even babies???!!!! Gosh where is their conscience???? seriously law and justice must be brought forth to punish this indescribable black hearted sellers! to whom money is probably their only goal resulting in all this cruel acts that caused so much trouble to people... i used to be very cautious with things i buy that made in... (you know where) but just when my friends told me that it is safe and things there are trustable, guess what they just made me loose confidence in their products... but what's worst is the babies that have died from it... GRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lord bring forth your justice upon these people, hear the cries of the babies that have suffered and people whom have fell victim to this unclean food... let judgement be brought forth... but nonetheless let mercy flow with it too...

Thoughts and emotions
Actually recently i have been thinking about stuff i have actually wanted to blog about very personal stuff but because i feared that it may too hurting and stuff....so i will start blogging :D

Paper is over!!! YAY!!!

2008-09-20T20:39:00.003+08:00

Well first i would like to say that my paper have officially ended on Thursday! cool... so as i promised myself i have been playing game for the past few days... till right now i am SICK!!! How great... well all the late night and less water intake is going to cost your health... grrr i hate feeling sic... what's more it is after my exams... i don't care!!! by hook or crook i am going to get myself recovered by tomorrow!!!

Happy Birthday
Anyway here is to one of my brother.. Will.I.am... Happy birthday to you!!! God bless you and may all your wishes come true... sorry i was not there for your party...

Sista
The day before my accounts paper i met one of my secondary school friend... she is like my sister... well the meeting was actually unexpected... but we saw each other at Macdonald's and really i felt that i have missed out alot... Conversation with her made me realise that people come and go... as long as we keep our hearts firm to what we have and instead of chasing things we don't, we will never be empty...

Thoughts and emotions
Well recently i had some conversation with friends... and to my surprise, i have learnt alot... to cut the story short, be yourself and accept yourself for who you are... love yourself... because in order for people to love you, you NEED to love yourself first... even though words of people may have hurt you, just Shake it off learn that people who cant accept you for who you are, then THEY don't deserve you... so please friends, don't tear yourself to fit what the world want you to be...

Recent days have been rather deep... thoughts and opinions have formed in my head... and many times i learn that it is not to everyone that you can openly share you opinions or problems... because ultimately even may end up getting slapped in your face... Though i am taught love my neighbor as myself but still i cant stand superficiality/ plastics...

all in all i am however really glad for the friends i have... i know i know people say that i am too friendly but it is result to me being really lonely and introvert in my lower secondary... now that i have friends i have learn to appreciate them even more... people are just very funny, they will never learn to appreciate things until they lose them... how funny is that... but it is true...

Mariah Carey
Well if you are free MC performed "I'm that Chick" on fashion rocks... and man to people who say she have lost her voice... well think again!

Lord shield me from the superficiality of this world,
let me be true to myself that i can be true to others...

Well 2 more papers to go!!!

2008-09-15T23:27:00.003+08:00

Ok i am really happy that there is only 2 more paper to go before a short break and start of H1 revision... I am been "fasting" from playing games(if that is the right word)... haha but really i am very happy that i can play after exams... and time to hit the gym and lose some weight... haha

Well firstly i wanna wish my "sis" a big big happy birthday to you!!! really sorry that i cant celebrate with ya due to my promos but anyway may your wishes and dreams come true... God bless your every move...

oh one more thing i would like people to know about MC... Before anyone of us forgets, Mariah Carey actually writes or co-writes her own songs... so be a lamb and give her recognition... :D

"You hold my every moment,
You calm my raging seas,
You walk with me through fire,
and healed all my dieases...
I trust in You..."

Just stand up...

2008-09-11T00:15:00.003+08:00

Just Stand Up
Well recently there is this show America where people come together to combat against cancer... it is really nice to see that the entire nation come together and combat cancer... truly it is a war... and it is really touching... seriously... and not to mention singer and musician came together and performed together... and well you can hear the song i have posted just stand up is sang by various singer and of course by my favourite Mariah Carey... really meaningful song...

Exams
Well this past few days is all about exams... well i hope that i will do well... :D

Song Writing
Oh yea just wanna share this... Well i remember around 2 years back i wrote this Christian song... and amazingly i have friends from other churches who ask me whether they can use that song in their cell groups... SO COOL!!! i am really happy that the song i wrote can actually touch the people around me... I am going to be more appreciative of the things and blessings God have given me...So after exams i decided to write more songs...

Math
Well i just have math exams today... i must really say that the paper is relatively easy IF YOU STUDIED... Well in my case don't really feel prepared for it though... but really even after promos i still have my math to buck up and not to mention... like my MT teacher said, this may be the last time taking Chinese exams depending on what course you take in the future... So technically this is the last race...

Fat Fat Fat!!!
Guess what???!!!!!!! I have grown Fat or to nicely put it, more prosperous... I have been eating and seating and sleeping... plus stress... haha how great i have gained a few kg... and friends reading please...don't Discriminate... :D Well i will start exercising after promos...

Elliot Yamin
Ok recently heard this singer Elliot Yamin.. and you guys should out his song titled "wait for you" man it is really nice!!! seriously

Nice chat session
Well today talked to friends today... thanks for the chat... Really help me express me inner thoughts... you guys are the type of friend i really appreciate the alot... Thanks once again...

Random thoughts
Just feel like saying this... I AM OVER YOU!!! HA!!!

"Light up the dark, if you follow your heart
And it will get better
Through whatever"

Exams starts tomorrow...

2008-09-07T22:15:00.002+08:00

Well exams starts tomorrow beside our GP which started last week...

"Lord i pray for your wisdom upon all my friends..."

Almost a week...

2008-09-02T23:26:00.004+08:00

well to start of... 5 more days to my promos... how great :D

Well this past week has been quite fun... firstly we celebrated teachers day... i mean really it is a day where us students should really reflect on what our dear teachers have done for us... really we should all be grateful...

Another thing is s=this past week have made me realise that there could be actually fun in studying. I mean not to sound like i do Extremely well for my studies but really when you sit down and like the things taught in school and absorb it, there is actually much fun in LEARNING!!!

hmmmm what else... yea i after my H1 A's i would like to work again... miss the working experience.. because frankly working has made me realise that money does not come easily and of not to mention the maturity and Independence... love them all.... Definitely wanna go back to Ferragamo... love the staff there alot!!! really nice....

oh another, recently my friends have posted about their favourite top 5 male, female and groups... well in any case here's mine(not like you guys don't already know)...

Top 5 male
Anthony Callea(All time Favourite!!!), Lee Ryan(Current Favourite), Andrea Broceilli, Josh Groban, Brian Mcknight

Top 5 Female
Mariah Carey(All time Favourite!!!!!!), Celine Dion, Whitney Houston, Leona Lewis(Current favourite) and Christina Aguilera

Top 5 Groups
Lifehouse, Hillsong, Celtic Women, Planet Shakers, Boy2men

well will be going off now... Take care :)

HAHAHA!!!

2008-08-27T07:05:00.001+08:00

guess what?!!!!!!!! I have slept since 7 yesterday!!! YAY!!!! soooo happy.... well bye bye now...gonna go to school...

Well it is almost one full WEEK!!!!

2008-08-25T00:26:00.002+08:00

Any here's the update if you are awaiting for...

Throughout last week, things have been quite good just that i did do very well for my test and all... but i know that perseverance is the attitude that turns failure into success...

Well life has it fair share of fun as well despite all the hustle and bustle... not sure is it the jokers jokes are getting more hilarious or maybe in the midst of stress this just help me find joy... but in any case, i am really thankful for the people around me... Thanks so much...

Promos
Well promos is just exactly 2 weeks away.. and my heart is pumping quite fast when i remind myself... it is either i make or break it.. i must do well...

so no more nonsense within these 2 weeks... in fact even after promos i still have my math and Chinese to catch up for A level's... So if i get a little "withdrawn" I hope you guys will understand...

Music
Well music will be very important especially in this period.. because i learn better with music... HEHE;) and ipod is really effective in group studies because not just does it help you study, block out external noises and it also help decrease distraction ALOT!!!... which is why Ipod are sooooo important to me...

Random
Well been through some thoughts... i think i have decided to move on...

Suprised!!! i am really am...

2008-08-18T23:52:00.002+08:00

Well today i was quite surprised with my cat results.... i still clearly remember when i came out of the examination hall, i was really beaten down... despite retaking, i had this feeling that i need to retake again!!! and i was quite sad though... but some how today when i log in to check my results, i actually passed... i was really really shocked!!! i mean i was like even prepared to retake... in any case, Thanks God for it :)

Well tomorrow is another day, and according Mr Singh we have around 7 more days including tomorrow before our promos... ahhhh!!! nervous is like the word now... i think i really need to double my pace of studying and make sure that i don't slack anymore...

And tomorrow there is math till 9pm... I will pull through...

EOM

2008-08-18T01:04:00.004+08:00

ok i just submitted my EOM... and i have a very strong feeling that i am going to get scolded..AGAIN!!! but in any case i think i have done my best. Somehow i did it alot easier to speak than to write...if only every single can be taken orally, i will be so much more confident, they don't have to tolerate my ugly hand writing...

Anyway moving on... i wanna talk a little about procrastination...
Well i think i am quite a perfect example of procrastination... i woke up at 12 pm in the afternoon and guess what????!!! i only only start on my work at 9pm how great!!! with all the eating(no wonder i am growing...) and sleeping like a pig of which i already am... oh wait and PLAYING non stop!!! oh my my... i should have trusted my given instinct that's to GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway thankfully i get to finish my stuff. So hopefully my EOM will be like 10,000 times better than the first...
School starts tomorrow...some how i dread for it to start because i know that there's TBT to always remind us of the test in every single lesson of his and not to mention Mr Singh constant reminder of the days left to our promos...no wonder stress level is always on the rise... what a way to start my beautiful morning... :)

But i know that with all these said and done, it is all for our own good... at the end of the day, our teachers and staff of school still get paid but it's our A level that determines our place in University... So thanks teachers and staff for reminding us of the reality :)...

Random

Well things have been rather rough lately with some band happenings and school staff... but i guess i am so tied up that my problems seems to be gone. But no doubt i am still missing someone out there...

YAY!!! a great job!!!

2008-08-16T23:23:00.004+08:00

Well today i did my very first worship with a group in a church... SOOOOO COOL!!!! i want to do it again.. :) And i think i have improved in singing in areas such as doing parts(with my friends help) and vocal acrobats... Of which i thank God for :) Well there is this saying "If you eat the fruit of the giants, you will become a giant" listening to great singers(Example, Mariah Carey...hehe) will definitely improve your singing some ways...

I really wanna do well in singing... Will definitely work towards it... Oh and i thank my teacher for being so supportive too :)

Anyway, now i can focus 100 percent on my studies since i have did the worship, so i told myself until end of H1 A level then only will i start taking up performances...

hmmmm what else??? Oh yea EOM is due tomorrow... Hope that i will do a good job...

Last but not least, i am thankful for the caring, loving and talented people around me... like today's Church that i went to... I mean the people there are just sooooo nice!!! NOT TO MENTION THE FOOD!!!! OMY GOODNESS!!! OFFICIALLY THAT BEST CHURCH FOOD LIKE EVER!!!

Random thoughts
Recently have watched some videos on youtube and it made me wonder how will it be like for in maybe 3 years down the road??? you never know what will happen... but i trust that things will work out best for those who trust in HIM.

Miss your voice...

Another week ending soon...

2008-08-15T00:21:00.002+08:00

Well here is some update...

Officially as of Wednesday, i have step down from my post in the band. Something which i must say that i am happy about... not just less load but positively i can focus more on my TMP! I know that i didnt do well for this year Transcendence... the best performance i had so far was the one i had with Esther last year singing "The Prayer". But i know that i must make up for my mistakes this time for cracking!!! and everything... I really wanna do well in singing... SERIOUSLY!!!

PW
Sometimes i feel quite terrible that i cant contribute the way my leader wants me to... it is not that i am not doing my stuff properly but it is some habits that i must get rid of example writing exactly the way i speak... so during report and all there needs to be some changes. But nonetheless i still love my entire group no matter what they say to me.

School
Well exams is coming really soon and my heart is beating fast as i type this statement so it is really no time for fun already, to make up for losses often take sacrifices of something else... so actually it took me awhile to decide not to perform teachers day... Never mind end of year The Ang will strike back :)

Church Performance
As of now, this Saturday will be last performance i will not be taking up any other until at least the end of my H1 A levels. No doubt this time is also quite rush we only had so far one rehearsals and tomorrow is the second one and not to mention that this Saturday is the actually performance... But...I have faith...

Mariah Carey
People who know may probably think i am crazy of something... but really past few days i just cant seem to get enough of Mariah Carey's music!!! seriously even in school her songs will just run randomly through my head... i really admire her God given talent!!! Fantastic!!! AHHHHHH I LOVE HER!!! Seriously come to think of it, her music is like my daily vitamin before i go to school... Recently heard this song of hers "Open arms" seriously it confirmed that MC can really do many genre of music, from R and B to gospel to pop to my favourite, BALLAD!!! and many more.... No wonder she is the best selling female artist in HISTORY!!! Take that man!!!

"So now I come to you with the open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am with the open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me
Open arms..."

Missing you here with me...

Well had fun today...

2008-08-12T00:46:00.002+08:00

Today went studying with a friend... i must say that it was really fun... we talk about Music!!! and man it is really nice that people who have the same passion come together and share about their experience... and i must that he is a really nice guy :) really opened me to alot more about Chinese instruments... thanks i love the GU ZHEN ALOT NOW!!!

Fun week

2008-08-11T00:17:00.005+08:00

Well how should i put it??? I have not been to school since last Thursday. That gives me about 5 days break. I do feel bad however that i did join my band. But i am really glad that all these CCA are officially out my way!!! YES!!! i am really really happy!!! now i can focus on my studies!!! YAY!!!

I think from now onwards no more nonsense, i really have to mug like never before to make up for my losses in the beginning of the year. I will get there...

Recently i have been frustrated with the lack of time to do my stuff, i know people will probably mention time management but seriously if there isn't even time, there is nothing to manage. Now however is no longer the case, i have time and i know that i have to manage it properly because at the end of the day everyone is going to UNI, no matter how much they may be your "brother" or whatever, they will still carry on with or without you. So seriously, "brotherhood" or any other form of distraction... i am going to be quite serious from now on...plus i have been seriously under performing...so... no more nonsense...

Anyway enough of serious talk recently this song has been in my head "One sweet day" by Mariah Carey and Boy 2 men!!! As usual Mariah is FANTASTIC!!! and man i really like Boy 2 men too... Seriously, Mariah Carey to me, personally, in my opinion, has the most fantastic voice like ever!!! Really, i doubt anyone can sing songs of hers like "Vision of Love" and many many more... After listening to the song "One Sweet Day" man i am blown away!!! I grew being a Celine Dion Fan but really after listening to Mariah Carey, i just fell in love with her Straight away and she became my favourite!!!... I still love many other singers namely Celine Dion, Whitney Houston, Christina Aguilera or the recent diva in the making Leona Lewis!!! I LOVE THEM ALL!!! I think they are FANTASTIC IN THEIR OWN WAY!!! and if there is a diva's night in Singapore i will DEFINITELY GO!!!!

Happy belated birthday SINGAPORE!!! :) I love my country!!!

The craziest thing for love...

2008-08-07T22:42:00.003+08:00

The craziest thing I have done for love is to fall for one whom i know that it will not happen. Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008. (http://www.yu-ai.blogspot.com/)

Well tired as usual

2008-08-04T23:07:00.002+08:00

Anyway here a short update on the recent update...

Well i must say that i am tired out and i really need a break not from studying but from everything else besides studying... really to be frank i am really tired of CCA's and other commitments... I really need time to sit down to study something which i don't really have... yes i know people talk about time management but the thing is that every time when i reach home i am already more or less worn out... so really i am getting very frustrated at times because this is like for once i wanna study but then all these kind of external stuff just comes along... grrrrr....

Sometimes i really hope that i can get "suspended" for the right reason of course, so that i can finish my homework and study by myself... well i think i am a independent learner, meaning i learn best by myself and if anything i don't understand i'll ask teacher... so "suspension" seems like the best choice for me... just that i dont want the bad record...

on the other note about my personal stuff... well i must say that it has got alot better with the emotions and all but i really hope that i will have the strength to carry on...

His eyes is on the sparrow...

What a terrible day...

2008-07-30T06:42:00.000+08:00

Well i must say that yesterday on Tuesday, my day didn't really start off well in anyway... Basically things just went wrong... I was so tempted to scream across the class...I dont know why, it just seems that the odds were stacked against me... as if life is never busy enough in anyway... GRRRRRR!!!!!!!

Well that aside... at least at the end of the day, something productive was actually produce especially math!!!

Then when i came home, guess what???!!! another big blow!!! I watched my performance on Transcendence... personally i find that I was not really up to standard at all... it is nothing to do with my pianist(He did great!!!)... it's just me!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I remember i was soooooo pissed with everything today that i feel like creating another blog just for screaming my heart out!!! When so many stuff are happening at one shot!!!

frankly i am lost, this year never really started out the way i wanted... with my results dropping like nobodies business!!! ahhhh!!! I cant even express what i want to say... but i know that i have been caught in some stuff... I know that i have no one to blame but myself... now i have to mug like nobody's business...

"Small but still, Resilient voice,
says help is very near..."

Trancendance performance...

2008-07-28T22:40:00.000+08:00

Well here is an update on Transcendence last Saturday... Well we started out meeting around 9am in the morning... saw some of my schoolmates outside... Well i must say that we didn't really start out the day well. There were actually some misunderstanding and unhappiness but after that the entire team moved very well... Through this i must say that even though stuff may happen but we know that when it is time to perform and do our best... We will do it!!!

Anyway first of all i want to start out thanking all my pals who have came down to support!!! even though it may not what you guys expected of me... but nonetheless i hope that you have enjoyed yourself... Even though I cracked(My first time in MI) and funny thing is that, it happened not on the high note but the note after that!!! come to think of it, it is actually quite funny... HAHA!!!

Well through this i must say that MI really has talent!!! a bunch of them are really talented!!! Even though some didn't perform but seriously they should!!! Fantastic!!!

hmmm so i am also feeling very that teachers said that i have improved vocally!!! YAY!!! but they funny thing is that i actually did alot lesser warm up and stuff... i know this is not right... about a week or 2 before performance singers should go into this extra vocal care mode... It helps protecting the vocal chords and many stuff... In fact singers should always be on constant vocal care... So i guess this time was really God's grace over me... Thank You Jesus...

MI Mart
Well i will be performing outside plaza Singapura... do come and support :) Not sure what to sing though... hehe but roughly have an idea in my head... yup... quite excited... my first public performance hehe...

Well recently i have found out this band called "Stentorian" they are really good!!! Love the bleeding love version!!!

so i will also be helping in one of my friends church for this Worship session... COOL!!! but i really hope that i can commit to it as band will be performing the national day...

Well that's all :)

Thank You Lord for Thy grace and mercy that flows graciously... Thank You Jesus...

Trancendance!!!

2008-07-26T00:48:00.000+08:00

Ok tomorrow is Transcendence performance!!! I am excited and happy. I just really pray that everything will go well and please pray that I don't get nervous and go flat. Well for those who want the tickets do come down and there will be a booth there.

Time: 3Pm - 5PM concert starts (come around 2.45 to purchase tickets)

Location : Millennia Institute Centre stage

Price: $8

Well that's all... i am going to sleep now...

Lord into Thy hands i commit my Spirit...

Short update...

2008-07-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

Ok anyway i came back from night study... and i really realise that the school is actually very nice to us... students... I really find it fruitful today... hopefully i will last...

I am also really grateful generally to the friends around me who have been so understanding and helpful in all that i do... I will always be grateful...

This Saturday is Transcendence!!! COOL!!! Do come down and support... :)

So how do i get over you...

random

2008-07-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

Ok i dont really know... what to post... hmmm

ok i know....

Transcendence Rehearsal
Well on Wednesday i had my rehearsal... and i must say that i feel really unprepared... i felt like it was quite terrible... hmmm sometimes i just feel like backing out... but that would be very irresponsible of me toward my duet partner... i am sorry...

Thank goodness in some ways because for the coming month i only have just 1 band performance instead of 3... I guess we all need a break somehow... so guys really take a good break and give our best on national day :)

Well i have one more upcoming performance still not sure what song to sing... Either "Time of my life" or " Always be my baby" or even both... Well i recently i am quite addicted to David Cook's music... personally i feel that he has a really good voice...

Racial Harmony
Well tomorrow MI will be celebrating racial harmony day!!! Frankly i really enjoy celebrating such festival because i believe that people of different races can come together and get to know each other better. I particular love my Secondary school where everyone dress up in different races costumes and the best class wins... FUN!!!

Maybe we're friends,
maybe we're more,
maybe it's just my imagination...

One week after the start of school...

2008-07-15T01:08:00.001+08:00

Alright where should i start with????

Anyway i didn't do well for my exams at ALL totally!!! Kinda sad though but i know that i have improve in many subjects. Like my econs i improved by 100% HAHA cool right!!! and GP and Mother tongue... I really love econs and wanna do well in it... By the way i actually feel kinda bad because during my period of failing m exams i know that i have disappointed quite a few teachers such as my Math and Accounts teacher. It is ok... whats done is done... i know that i will not repeat this mistake again...

National Band Competition!!!
Anyway i wanna say that i am proud with my band!!! i really really am and totally in love with everyone of them!!! you guys rocks!!! We got Silver this time but even though we aimed for gold but remember that this is our first time and if we can get silver for this competition we never know how much more we can achieve!!! SYF gold is at hands!!!

Upcoming week
Well the upcoming week will still kinda be busy for me as i have 2 more events after which i tell myself not to take up anyone after my H1 A level... Firstly Transcendence.... of which i don't feel prepared as we are all busy and all during the holidays taking place next Saturday... i just pray very hard that is will be a good performance... Secondly Mi Mart... which will take place in the 2nd of August... outside Plaza Singapura...

Personally
Well i have been feeling much much better as i constantly remind myself of the strength in me... Despite how much the world may try to make me feel bad or inferior compared to them... i know for sure... the Lord will exalt the humble and bring down the proud...

" You go before me,
You shield my way,
in every season... i know You love me..."

First proper day of school

2008-07-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

Ok today is the first day of school... i must say that it definitely isn't a ray of sunshine...

Sad news
First i started my day with a very tired body because i slept late and reason for doing so... playing computer games.

Secondly, for my PE game grouping i got into hockey and really my cup of tea... I have always wanted to play volleyball...

Thirdly, i did very badly for my math... and i mean really bad...

Good news
Well not all hopes is lost, for my Chinese i am really happy that the teacher said i have improved!!! YES!!! actually i think i could have passed if i read the question even more clearly.

and the reflection that my math teacher asked me to write have kinda renewed this light in me...

Personal stuff
Actually this few days have even help me high lighted clearly who are those friends whom i can really trust and reply on... somehow these few days i just am able to see it clearly. Some just want to tear you down and some just really pesky... however there are also some that i can really hold onto like those who care and concern... I am thankful i can discern...

I have also come to terms with myself not to get into emotional stuff that wont really help in my life... or even get myself hurt... so i am just going to take it easily...

Oh and recently i realised that i have been relatively cold or irritating to some people... but really if i have hurt anyone recently i am sorry about it... maybe it is because i am going through some stuff in my life that is why... sorry about it...

I will arise safe and sound... and make it through the rain...

As for my math... I will not sit and wait for miracle, but perform the unthinkable...

Lord you are my strength...

Man i am exhausted!!! 5/7

2008-07-05T23:47:00.000+08:00

Well today i went to Sentosa to a group of my friends... and it was very enjoyable!!! Although it rain a little here and there... but still it is the companion among great friends that matter :)

Anyway i have meet someone even though i had a feeling i will meet him somewhere or some time... and we did... but anyway, if you are reading this, sorry if your friends felt...you know... but we are really comfortable with you guys...and sorry if i was quite harsh with my attitude towards you...i just playing around :)... but still...you're irritating... HAHAHA just kidding...

Anyway...i am totally beat out... i slept really according to my time and woke up really early according to my time... and did quite a work out... i feel... but it was all VERY VERY FUN!!! i think i will make it a hadbit to visit Sentosa at least once a month... hehehe...

anyway next week is going to be a long and pretty much dreadful to a certain extent firstly positive forward looking to getting back results for some subjects and negative for some... PLUS!!! the entire week of next, there will be band... man i hope i will have the energy to pull through... anyway gonna sleep now... take care and God bless ya'll :)

Exams!!!! Officially over...

2008-07-05T01:11:00.000+08:00

YAY last paper was like yesterday!!! finished with my Chinese A level oral... although for my accounts paper which suppose to be upon 100 turn out to be 75 because i skipped the last question!!! grrrr... i really didn't know how to do it... and i know for sure that this second paper is really gonna affect my entire accounts paper... Well i know i can do better, and i know this is not the end of it...

However i thought that my Chinese oral was quite interesting...i thought would do badly well at least for my reading... but for my passage i am quite confident that i will do will in that area... Well i did my best HAHA :) Its Chinese!!!

so i know that now i have exactly 3 more days before facing the music of our results. so.... meaning i am going to PLAY!!! sooo well yea erm hmmm i am going to enjoy myself...

Recently
Well recently i have got to know a few more friends better and clearer. And actually they are very nice people... i am also grateful that there people who are actually open and understanding and accepting to certain issues... thanks you people...

Well recently i am feeling lots of surges of inspiration to write and desire to sing parts and just make music!!! Really i cannot imagine my life without i music... I will totally CRY without it!!! Thank God for it... anyway few days back as i have mentioned that i want to write songs for mothers... i will get to it soon... so over the next few days i pray for inspiration...

Oh next week my friends and i plan for a performance at Esplanade library open mic... So i hope that it will turn out well... but somehow there is this affirmation that i will do well... SO EXCITED!!!

"Before the world began,
you were on his mind..
and every tear you cry,
is precious in His sight...
because of His great love,
He gave his only Son...
Everything was done,
so you would come..." "So you would come" by Hillsong

In my life be lifted high...

1 more to go!!!

2008-06-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

ok econs paper today is quite cool... man it has been a long long time since i wrote this much... well i am quite happy with the paper today but i know i could have done much better... for sure i know i will do better than my common test... With You i'll walk the raging sea...

Anyway here is still accounts... Lord guide me... I really wanna do well for this paper even though i realise that i have been distracted with certain stuff this first half of the year but i know i will not bring it with me anymore...

Ok yea cant wait to meet up with my sis this week not to mention after my chinese a level oral... It has been quite a long time since we actually met... i miss her...

Ok a recent update musically... well i was suppose to find a voice teacher/ vocal couch and utilise the funds given by my school... and i actually found one while i was studying!!! how cool is that... her back ground info are rather impressive but because with her given course fee i can only attend about 2 month of lesson before the i use up the funds left... but anyways i will still enquire with the 2 that have been recommend... and... yup definitly wanna start classes after the exams...

and i have rather addicted to life house!!! Love Jason Wade's voice!!! and his songs!!! guess it is so meaningful and inspiring because of his life journey... Well i love his singing alot!!! and Lee Ryan... solid vocals!!! and Jordin Sparks!!! and of course not forgetting Mariah Carey... love her always!!!

one thing i also realise... that the many times the reason why some songs are so powerful in terms of the impact it has on the hearer is because of the writers life experience... because "Whatever does not kill you make you stronger" So i really love songs like this... ALOT!!! i find it sooo comforting to listen too... it can be so powerful that actually transcend time and space... those songs may be written 10 years ago or even in some small part of a country but today it will still stay true and beautiful... Lord i wanna write songs like this... help me Jesus

Well i have actually written a few songs... i need to find a time to do a actual proper cover... however recently this title "Song for Mothers" have been popping out of my head... i know for sure i will write it down... for my mum... and other mums too... :) well Father's will have to wait... HAHA

"Lord i know that i am imperfect,
still You love me as i am...
grace You've withheld not from me,
and love You've given abundantly...
if i were to stray away,
set me back and pave my way...
For i know that Your the only One,
i wanna spend my life with You... my days..."

Went to Church today:)

2008-06-29T18:49:00.000+08:00

Well its been quite a log while since i went to church... to be exact 1 month!!! Well today had a praise and Worship Session... cool love IT!!!!!

Anyway my day church have made me pondered and wonder about some stuff in my life... oh i also realised that dream(not the sleeping ones) but goal, aim and target are actually very important in our life...it is one of the powerful factor that drives us... trust me i have realised how much strength it can give to oneself... along that comes hope in our dreams so that we will never give up... am i making sense??? Because personally i always make it a habit to remind myself of the dreams i have and obliviously work towards it!!! however along the way there bound to be people who tries really really hard to make you feel that you don't matter at all or tear you down... but always remember that at the end of every storm, there will always be a rainbow...hold on to the strength and peace in you...

Anyway i feel sooo deep out of a sudden... but i mean what i write...

so moving on to something more daily and stuff you can ponder about...

ok so short update... tomorrow is econs paper i wanna do well for it!!! i actually love econs alot now...possible my my favourite subject among the H2... wanna do well for it... following that accounts paper on Thursday and A level Chinese oral!!! ahhhhhh

my theory is "Do your best and let God do the rest..."

watch this... life changing :)

Anyway i have to get going... take care guys and God bless y'all!!!

"Here in Your courtswhere I'm close to Your throne,
i found where i belong..."

2 more paper to go...

2008-06-29T00:44:00.000+08:00

Alright actually believe it or not somehow i am left with 2 more papers to complete... COOL!!!!

Hmmm guess i will take a short break after that by meeting my secondary school friends... then gonna pick myself up and start practices my math and chinese... :) These few weeks have kinda been terapeutic for me... i think the business have help me realise how much i could do... I have also hanged out with friends that i never knew we could actually clic... :) Tomorrow is Sunday... I will be going to Church!!! YES!!! i have not been sttending since i came back from Beijing... Really miss my friends there...

Truly i am generally happy with myself at the moment...just taking a short break before i get back in stride...

"I pray You'll be our eyes... in times when we dont know..."

EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-24T17:19:00.000+08:00

Ok exams technically have started yesterday... some papers are really tough!!! for example Mother Tounge!!! this particular passage really made me feel like slapping someone!!! something about son washing the fathers feet then dirty and everything GRRRRRRR!!!!!! basically throughout the entire exam i was writing my reflections... K BEST!!!!!!!

Anyway another really made me quite frustrated is the my Cam's memory card... AHHHHH 900 hundred photos taken in Beijing and now i cant open... but i know i am suppose to bring it down to the service center to get it done... but nooooooo time!!!! never mind next week:)

Well... what else...erm.... i know that my recent blog has been quite empty...NOT that i am leading a boring life... just that i really dont have much time to update... but anyway here is a short one....

now i am currently having exams which will end around next week... YAY!!!

Serious/personal stuff
Ok as you guys already know or even if you didn't you will know it now...That i am A HUGE GIGANTIC, ENORMOUS Fan of MARIAH CAREY!!!!!!!!

And recently i must i have don't some thinking about my future and stuff but sometimes i just have this fear in my heart that i don't know what is going to happen in the future... somehow the uncertain makes me nervous... because think of it, time flies before you know it you would probably be working somewhere at some time and then probably you will recount to the times when you ponder about the future... plus i kinda felt oppressed someways and Thankfully I found this song titled "Cant Take That Away" by Mariah Carey... and it really kinda brought courage and peace into my heart... seriously go listen to it... Those of you guys who are being put down by the people around or feel that you don't matter at all because of what people say of you... but always remember that there's a light in you that shines brightly, they can try but they cant take it away and The Lord will guide you where you need to go... Trust me it has became my Anthem for strength... apparently it is also called "Mariah's Theme"...

They can try but they cant take that away from me...

Ok 5,006,000 and 32 million years later...

2008-06-08T22:23:00.000+08:00

Well it has been really really long about 2 months... Well anyway here an update...

Month of April

Well this month is my birthday and we also celebrated a few others birthday... hjmm what else happened???????? well i kinda forgot already...

Anyway in general, school has been quite stressful i would say..but no doubts i will not allow it to bring me down... As usual i am still all over Mariah Carey.... Love ya GIRL!!!

MAY

Well i went this is more recent so i can remeber it clearly... I went to BEijing and I must say it is really fun there... I really like the tour guide she has been so nice to all of us. It's quite funny coming to think of it, i actually thought that there would still be cows or some other farm animal strolling across streets there!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA hilarious... Actually i would say Beijing is really catching with Singapore... There is this place called "The Place" man the shops there are some what paragon like just that it is nicer there and classier... I really want to go back there...

Food wise man the peking duck is just fantastic!!! i am not a fan of duck but now i am... kinda feel sad for the duckies that day... but still delicious!!! ;)

Scenery... WOOW!!!! you should got there and see it for yourself... picture can only show this much but when you are there it is totally different!!! I love You Beijing....

Besides the bad air there and traffic... Beijing is really fun to go to!!! but still i still love my home land Singapore more than any other country.... :)

In General

Well life has been in a hustle and bustle state... which has been good in some ways and bad in some ways... Good stuff is that i am so busy that the bad stuff have been covered... bad stuff is that i have really not been spending my quiet time... i kinda feel that i am lagging behind in my studies.. "whatever does not kill me, makes me stronger"...

Another Sunday...

2008-04-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

Well today i have realised that there are actually loads of people who care for me...which i am grateful for like TOTALLY!!! From my school friends, all the way to church friends...They are just so nice and wonderful!!! I love you all!!! from the bottom of my heart...

Well had some time to "dig" around the house for some memories... and i found photo of me as a baby. Super cute...HAHA!!!! Really i mean it...

its amazing what photo can remind us of...so much that we have tossed to the back of our mind...
It actually reminded how much my mum have work to raise me up to who i am today... I love you mummy!!!

It kinda almost brought tears to my eyes thinking of the blessings and protection from the most high who has given us grace to pull through these tough times...Thank You Jesus...

Well now that i found this album, i bet there is loads more to be found!!!! YAY!!! New play ground...

A new week ahead... a fresh start... a new beginning... i cant wait...

"Lord thanks for all the love, strength and grace that abound with me from you. No words can ever express how thankful i am. I belong to You. So much i wanna express to You that sometimes i am lost for words... but one thing that i desire, and its to be with You always...Amen"

"What a hope i found,
more faithful than a mother,
it would break my heart,
to ever lose each other"

Well a few days has past...

2008-03-30T02:03:00.000+08:00

Well today i went to Sakura with my friends and went over to my other friends house to celebrate her birthday...

Ok tomorrow i am meeting my friend to attend church... sudden urge just fill me to draw near to Him once more... after the G.A.P production i realise that i have drawn closer to Him... but i wanna draw nearer...

I see my friends going through different stuff in their life's and i see it clearly as i stand at their side... but i do have my question about things... at times even though i can relate to them but i know that it is not right how am i suppose to tell them??? when such feeling flow within me...
I fear, i ask and i trust that grace with carry me through...

God i ask of You,
to give a heart that's ever true...
one with no deceit and lies but beautiful.
With ever desire of loving You...

Great time we had...

2008-03-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

Thank You God so much for the success and everything He has done today...

Easter Drama
Well it is fantastic!!! I must say it has touched so many people...this is frankly my first time realising how powerful a drama can be... no doubt i always knew that songs and music are extremely/one of the most powerful tools to convey God's message but i never knew that Drama can be so powerful too... Thank God for all the gifts and talents he has given us... Thank You Jesus...

Well i am also grateful and happy for the salvations...
"Lord i do also pray that my friends will come to know You too... i know that they have felt You today... but God i know that the seed is plant and i ask that Jesus use me to flourish the seed in him... Thank You Lord"

"Lord tomorrow is going to be a long day, and i do know that i have decisions to make... but i know that Your hands is always with me... even though at times You may withdraw Your hands from me to test me but i know that Your eyes are always fixed on me... help me decide what's good for me and give me wisdom to discern what's right from wrong... Make me one with Jesus... Let my hearts beat with yours...Words can never express what You have done for me these few days Jesus...even though it may still seems like i have some stuff that i need to correct but i know with You i have sufficient Grace to pull through... Thanks Jesus, Thanks for everything...You are my Superhero..."

Nope i have not forsake my blog...hehe

2008-03-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

Well last post was like 3rd of March or something... Well i didn't post because there was so much stuff happening...

Well this is what's happening the whole of March
1) Firstly starting with band camp
2)Live 2008(of which i didn't went because i fell sick)
3)Project work
4)SYC second audition this coming Wednesday
5)Trancendance
6)K pop
7)Easter drama( of which i look forward to most!!!) DO come and watch... people have put in loads of effort and man it will pay off :)
8)Studies
9)Diploma's (During the march holidays)

I know i know that that's lots of stuff...i know that i have to also learn to cope with it... and i actually i am starting to cope...

Ok there's lots of birthdays this month and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all of you guys!!!! Love you all...

Band
Well thank God we have lots of pre U 1... and band enthusiast they are! New member means renewed hope for US!!! YAY!!!

SYC
Ok the coming Wednesday i am going to have my second audition, of which as usual i am freaking out as the days draws nearer... God i so totally need Your help... I have some plans with regards to SYC... I pray that Lord will show my His way...

(ok was planning to type about more happenings but i will skip them)

Good Friday and resurrection Sunday
I was really touched when one of my friend actually smsed me in that morning that the truth have sunk in, Jesus died 2 thousand years ago For me and You... Went to church with my friends...

Well now for my words from my heart...
I don't know why that within these 3 days something has happened to me, in a good way...
Words cant really explain how this feels... but it feels good some how... I just feel so comforted... Weeks before this, things weren't going right for me, studies were bad and i just feel so lost that i don't know what to do... I wanna cry but for once it is so hard to... All i could do is to maybe drown myself in all the activities around... and to some i may seems perfectly fine taking things within my stride but it is not as it seems...

Emptiness was what i was feeling, trying to put on smiles to everyone... That's maybe why i needed loads of solitude from everything around me... i knew that something was missing but i didn't know how to get rid of that feeling... My hearts was filled with fear and loneliness, something i remember feeling only till i was Sec 3... I know that i have great friends but somehow that was not enough... I just wanna fly away...

But all this came to an end within the last week or so... i realise that at times i have been so heavily clouded by so many things that i forgot who was the One who has given me all this things/gifts/ friends and every everything in my life... It is not the Easter service or the church moments but it is the very facts i have to return to my maker and stand in awe!

This goes out to this very special group of people... People from G.A.P i wanna say thanks to you guys with all my heart... you have no idea how you have impacted me... you are the guys i wanna remember always...

With this being said and done, it is not that everything will become a ray of sunshine but i know that i can face it with the grace given to me...

"You calm the storms and you give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fold
You still my heart when you take my breath away
Would you take me in take me deeper now
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by You
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by You
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this"

ok its been quite awhile...

2008-03-04T00:16:00.001+08:00

Well it is about 12.17am... now i am just feeling bored and though there is so much things to be done, i just cant seem to focus and i wonder why???

but moving on...i kinda look forward to tomorrow's G.A.P meeting where people with love for Christ meet up after school...which is like....so totally cool!!!! Like I know right...

So today i just went to sign up for the Live 2008! it is a competition something like talent time thingy but the good thing is that it's for CHARITY!!!!! great and great prizes to be won... so i really wanna take this opportunity for me to just open myself up for exposure and boost my confidence of being on stage alone...so there is a audition next Saturday and i really hope that i get through...really happy...

next school band, well I am really glad that there is so many people who came to join band...thank God for a the enthusiastic pre u 1!!! HALLELUJAH!!!! so now we can focus more on keeping them and improving them...

Ok next SYC just had their performance on SAT and it is a Blast!!! Thank GOD!!!

"Lord, i know Your grace is sufficient in all my circumstances...Amen"

Ok 10000 years later!!! I know right...

2008-02-23T23:31:00.000+08:00

ok it's been so long since i last updated...guess there has been so much happening recently... well here a short update...

SYC is having a concert on the 1st march but the tickets are all sold out... and man i really love the reportiore...

Erm recently stuff has been quite bad...my results are really dropping from ok to bad and from bad worst... but no worries i will strike back full force... i mean it...

so what else...erm...oh i am grateful to God that there are people who love him so much in my school too...and i love hanging out with them... women and man for God... interested people let me know... it is every tuesday...

anyways moving on...i am addicted to Mariah Carey's new single... "touch my body" Love it!!! like seriously LOVE IT!!!!!!!!! what can i say it is Mariah!!!!

I really love this so so much... cant stop grooving with the music...

updating...

2008-02-06T21:20:00.000+08:00

Ok firstly a big HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! May all your wishes and dreams come true....

so after CNY it is gonna be my common test!!! LIKE I KNOW RIGHT....Tell me about it...so i think i wont be reall celebrating CNY...wanna do well for my common test especially with all the things i have taken up and i definitly dont want it to be blamed for my results...so i will be mugging for the next few days...Lord bless my friends and i...

Oh today i am really quite touched by some events...and all i can say is i am extremely thankful to God for all my friends(not sure how many times have i said it but i really mean it...) sooo something brought up my memories about my life in secondary school i kinda miss a few people here and there but still i know that i have to move on despite the joy and the pains i have went through...

but anyway moving on... about recently...hmmm how should i express myself??? well studies wise i have been quite distracted and lost focus with stuff... there is still something in me that struggles to come clean... but never lets take time and see how it goes...

So practice in SYC has been really fun!!! i love the sectionals and all...really interesting and something that keeps me going back for more... hehe Choir is just s fun!!!

erm whatelse??? Oh yes i wanna share with you guys my top 10 favourite singer(in order)(it may change depends on my mood)...
1) Mariah Carey/Anthony Callea/Celine Dion(i know right but i cant make up my mind...)
2)Leona Lewis
3)Josh Groban
4)Christina Aguilera
5)Darlene Zesch
6)Carrie Underwood
7)Ricki Lee Coulter
8)Andrea Broceili
9)Lee Ryan
10)Jordin Sparks

Ok so what else??? but anyway listening to a wide range of music can really suprise you in many ways...

ya hmmm it's been long i blogged...

"Lord i will rise on eagles wings"

WOW ITS BEEN LONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-25T22:31:00.000+08:00

Wow it has been really long since i have blogged...well anyway i will sum it up quick before i head to bed :)

Lots of stuff and happenings recently, especially with everything and start of school, new and more exposure to everything around me...

Singing/Music
Well for some of your who don't know, I got into SYC!!!(Singapore Youth Choir!!!!) Grateful am i to God for this opportunity...well i definitely have lots to learn, since i have practically no choir background... so ya tomorrow is my 3rd practice... so hopefully that my throat infection will completely cure and will not fall sick tomorrow...because i am feeling not really well now... Lord by Your strips, i am healed...

Band
well Chinese new year is coming soon, and we are starting to practicing for it...and i must say i have never come across a piece as tough as one the pieces i am playing for CNY... So i must really start practicing... Ensemble pieces are really grate too...

School

As for school wise i am quite happy that i am picking up fast towards studying...i still remember the first 2 weeks was really horrible...lot of stuff happened really got quite stressed... But thanks God, now i am back on track!!!

Diploma also started too and i hope that this time i will be more focused to pass this module...

so that all for now...

"Lord help me live out Thy will...Amen"

And our love goes round and round

way up high, a joy ride...

Thank God that my fever left :)

2008-01-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

Ok like on Friday night i caught a fever 39.2 degree Celsius felt really terrible and today i am feeling a whole lot better... Thank God for it :)

Well i went Church today and the service was GREAT!!! and a book written by my senior pastor David Lim(cost $15/+) was given out to everyone who came for that service FREE!!! So cool!!! We had communion too!!! what an amazing way to start the new year...

Ok tomorrow i will be going for jab for my legs...as some of you guys know, my leg have suffered from tendon inflammation... i got it from my job and seriously it has stopped me from doing some of my favourite sport like running and not to mention even walking becomes a chore...well after a year it will end tomorrow after the jab...i really wanna do well in my napha(well not sure how to spell it)...plus exercise...not that i am a lazy bum(although i can get a little at times :) but my leg really hurts at time that even walking becomes a problem...but anyway i really pray that my leg will completely heal completely at least before the napha and the jab will not result in any side effect... God bless me

Ok another thing i wanna mention is that my msn account is gone...not because of anything but because i forgot my password...HAHA so now my new msn account is zannyzanezane@hotmail.com yup that my msn email... so just add me up :)

As most of you guys know that my passion for singing just shot up like a hundred thousand times and only if i had a more time i would take up all of these...i have sign up for audition in all the choir i know...i really wanna get into a choir any choir but especially the Singapore Youth Choir...i really wanna get into this choir but i know that it is a really established choir...so i don't think they might accept me since i have no choir background but i still hope they do let me go for a audition at least...because they have asked for my background info and i emailed them but have not responded whether i can go for their audition...so now i have 2 other choir that replied to ask me to drop by for an audition...so i really don't know what to do...plus i have my church choir...i really wanna continue badly... so i am really confused now... Lord show me Your way...

Ok will update more next time :) God bless...

Wow it's been quite a long time since i have last blogged!!!

2008-01-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

(HAHA just woke up from a nap) Well i would like to wish you guys Merry Christmas(even though it is over) and Happy new year...

Christmas
Well during Christmas eve i went over to my friends house to stay overnight...well it was fun, we played MJ and Xbox and all...enjoyable...

But some how last Christmas i still felt something missing. Not really what is it... it didn't seem as fun as last last year(i mean 2006)

New Year
As for new year i stayed at home because i have been going out everyday and became quite exhausted. So i celebrated new year at home :)

New year resolution
Well i guess for me year 2008 will be an extremely busy year also a year that either i will make it or break...well obliviously i will MAKE IT!!! With You all things are possible...

My new year prayer
"Lord keep my visions in sight,
let me not get distracted...
keep me on solid ground,
that i will not stumble...
Give me faith to believe in myself,
and hope in You that never fails...
Help me love my neighbour as myself,
as i also guard my heart from negative influences...
Even as i walk through the storms,
help me remember the first love i have in You...
So Lord after all is said and done,
I know my dreams will come true...Amen"

ok now finally i can get stuff from my heart...

2007-12-18T22:52:00.000+08:00

Well today i have had the whole day staying at home...didn't went out...maybe i should have...to avoid all those thoughts that are so distressing...

I don't know why but i feel like being tied down by something...my heart just wanna break free...mean while i am pretty confused with some stuff...don't know how tell to express...i really cant stand it when it is so hard to even express that's so natural...emotions...

Today i had thoughts of turning back to what i was doing in the past...how would life felt...i am quite tired being sooo vulnerable...sometimes i feel like i am easily brought down by people's influence or even words... i find it hard to balance...which is something that i really now...balancing emotions is important...

But to think of it, being a Christian, i know that God has always been with me...the friends He have placed in my life are just really nice...even if there are some nasty ones, i know for sure they will make me stronger...because like Mariah Carey once said "Whatever does not kill you, makes you stronger..." So i know that God's plan are to prosper me...

"Lord sometimes i know i have drifts away from You...
but still Your gaze have always been on me, day and night...
Lord sometimes i feel so small in this big big world,
that there are constants challenges i fear i cant handle,
and then i remember Your word of love and faith
Your promises that never fades..."

God will make a way when there seems to be no way...

after band concert...

2007-12-18T12:38:00.000+08:00

Ok months of practice and awaiting...finally on the 15th of dec it came the final showdown...
Though it may not be like a Esplanade performance but one thing i can say is that, we have put in loads of effort and this is our first performance without collaboration... For that it was really a great performance!!! A big shout out to all my Band buddies!!! "Keep up the good work!!! The next will definitely be better!!!"

Well i don't really know what else to blog...will blog more maybe later..

Performance is tomorrow...

2007-12-14T22:02:00.000+08:00

Well tomorrow is the performance...i am still a little nervous but none the less i will give my best... I really hope that everything will turn out FANTASTIC!!! I know that it will...Amen!!!

Lord help me and be with me always...

After reharsals...

2007-12-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

Well today rehearsal was great and fun...i also had a chance to rehearse my singing with the band and man i got to calm the nerves...God help me... But i know that it will get alot better by Saturday...

So now i am quite tired and tomorrow i have to go back to school for my talent management talk...Wow so excited and all... I really love MI!!!

Ok so as you guys know maybe some don't...i used to have tendon inflammation in my right heel...just when i thought it was getting better...now the pain coming back...really hope that one performance day i will get better...

Lord make me Holy Thine...

Here's some update...

2007-12-11T01:20:00.000+08:00

Ok so my CAT exams ended already...and now i can totally do stuff that i want... YAY!!!

Oh not forgetting to mention my band concert is on this Saturday...so those interested do let me know...
Band Concert
Date:15 Dec
Venue:MI (Centre stage)
Time:5.30pm
Price: $5
This is our first own band concert...so do come and give your support...i will be singing too :)

So in this concert great songs will be played...you will love it...

Choir Practice
Like i have totally missed church choir prac for like almost a month...really miss the practice... i will totally go back after band concert...

Church
And not to mention church....i missed last 2 weeks of service because of waking up late which is totally not acceptable(personally)...so this Sunday by hook or crook i am going...Forgive me

Yoga class
HAHA believe it or not i am going to take up yoga classes with my mum...which is cool...i mean you get to bond with someone and exercise at the same time...i know that this is a good way for us to hang out...

Talent Management Programme
I got selected YAYAYAYAYAY!!!! soooo happy...Thanks you Jesus...

So i guess you guys have wondered whether humans can break glass with their voice...well the fact is yes and it is sooo cool... here's a video

Well i am quite tired now....will update more tomorrow... God bless...

Exam is tomorrow...

2007-12-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

Ok a short update...tomorrow is my diploma's exam...Lord give me wisdom...
So much stuff has been happening...but i pray with all my heart that things will turn out smoothly...

But i know that after tomorrow...i will start to do stuff that i have not done in a long time like writing songs and maybe jamming??? but i want to have fun...Not to also mention to practice for my band performance...YAY!!!

So i will get going...God bless all of us for tomorrow's exam...

Chat with my best mate...

2007-12-03T03:01:00.000+08:00

alright here's a short update on my night out with my "sis" on Saturday night...well we chated and laughed and sang together...well really those times are precious...she is someone whom i can pour out my heart to...knowing that there is peace and comfort whenever i share with her ... and i cant wait for the next meeting...

Ok finally i got to hang out with my mum after like don't know how many donkey years...well even though we didn't went anywhere far but really i miss clinging on to her like when i was really small(pestering her to buy stuff for me)... And she bought stuff for me YAY!!! :) Really love you mum...

Grace my fears released...

Alright as usual stuff happened...

2007-12-01T00:39:00.000+08:00

Ok something really random happened like yesterday...just a short update before that...

There are times when things change and people around you as well and the only way to handle it well is to really move on...it doesn't matter how long you may know that person but people change so I got to move on and be who i am...

So yesterday one of my 2 friends whom (we kinda stop hanging out) texted me...i was not really surprised though but he ask me a question that made me really surprise...he asked, dont i miss those times i had with the both of them...well at first i really didn't know how to answer but somehow i had to be true to myself and to him...so i told him that i have moved on and things that are done at times will remain as it is...even though i really miss them but i know that i will treasure the moments i have with them... and he just replied "I see"... i didn't reply to that...

but anyway i am thankful for the friends i have now...i still remember i was a extremely introvert guy in primary school with only like 2 "true friend" of which both "betrayed"(extremely childish reason...HAHA)me...

It's sad to think of my secondary besties kinda split up because of relationship problems within the group itself... so only a few of them whom i am still in contact..but at times i feel that they are always caught up with their stuff(shall not name it)..but i know within myself that there is still one who is like my real sister...i thank God for her...

ok enough of my secondary school friends...i like to give a shout out to my MI friends...man!!! in case i have not mentioned it before...i really feel happy around you guys even though i know different people have different personalities(makes you guys all the more unique :) still all of you guys including band members are really precious to me...Thanks for being my friends...

ok this is my first time posting pictures...ok for your in this is Anthony Callea, my favourite singer and my role model for singing...

Another two of my favourite Celine Dion and Mariah Carey

Ok that's all for today... God bless

Lord make it easy for me to handle...thanks...

feeling a little uncomfortable...

2007-11-29T00:09:00.000+08:00

Alright my diploma's exams is coming soon in fact next Friday...man and i am not really prepared for it...got to get my mind focused...

Like that is not the stress enough...at times i ask myself am i changing? is the "world" molding me to one whom i don't use to be...just because the world feels that the only way to be "accepted" is to live by it's standards...so sometimes the only way to live by the worlds standard is to live out a life that is outside of our own principle...i feel like that is what i have been doing and frankly i am quite tired of it...you might say that i am being exposed to my surroundings but one thing i know that, it cannot be done at my principle's expense...Life in MI has really made me grow and learn alot...i have to say that it has made me realise the good and bad that pressure from surrounding can offer...well after all this is said and done, it is still up to us to decide what to be taken in...

Went for sectionals and as usual i am extremely happy whenever there is anything to do with band... sectionals was fun...teachers in charge of band are sooo nice...really love them all...and i really like my sectional leader, we had great laughs together...

Bro/sis please pray for my voice...it has not completely recovered...thanks...

Tomorrow is the last session with my diploma tutor before my diploma's exam...

"Lord help me to rise up against the storms in my life... Lord guard me from the world's bad influence, instill in me only those that are pleasing in Your eyes...Amen..."

Band Camp was really really fun!!!

2007-11-25T16:03:00.000+08:00

Alright i had my band camp(although i didn't stay overnight) last Thursday and Friday...We had lot of fun to be honest...i really enjoyed myself...the games and TUTORING!!! was just fantastic within all the diploma classes...I wanna get the tuner metronome... i also love the night walk...love it when i scare the hack out of people...HEHE...well but i guess it really took a toll in my voice having to scream and shout while having dry cough and all...now i am worried because the concert is just roughly 3 weeks from now...God help me...

Well to inform you guys my diploma's exam is actually in around 12 days time...and i am still quite shock that there isn't a sense of urgency in me...bad bad bad...anyway must start studying...

Well tomorrow there is extra math lesson...although i didn't do well for math in fact i did badly but because i am proud that i have a passionate teacher which makes me wanna work even harder...i have worked very hard for my math in secondary school and i will do the same in MI...Lord show me Thy wisdom...

alright another thing i wanna share is my choir practice...i have not went for about 2 weeks...and i am starting to wonder about going...something within me just feels...different...i really wanna be in a choir badly....well i don't man...i will see to it the coming Tuesday...

Ok i love the serial i watched "As the world turns" and "Holly oaks"...it has been quite long that i have watched a really nice serial...and i love this two...and i got to say that there is much out there in other countries that we don't know...

Alright video for today..."Can't touch it" Ricki Lee Coulter

Never too far away...

Tired...

2007-11-22T07:50:00.000+08:00

Today and tomorrow is going to be a long day...I hope i can cope through well...

Ok as usual i watched Mariah singing on youtube and i really didn't know she had songs that really moved me songs like "Saving grace", "Vision of love" and "Never too far"(which is what i watched yesterday... Man it is really touching, i can tell that she almost cried...but she still remain strong that why her songs are about her life, her faith in God and walking through the rain...i really Really love her alot...

So video for today "Never too far away"

You calm the storm in me...again...

Dreams that felt sooooo real...(well i hope my dream comes true) :)

2007-11-20T22:35:00.000+08:00

Well last night i slept late and i had dreamS ...yes a few dreams...but cant remember clearly...
But i guess one moment i was living my dream/goal and the next i was crying because my dream finally came true...I was hugging my mum...and physically i cried out but there was no tears...it really puzzled me...but i myself got shocked...waking up "crying" with neither sound nor tears....(Does this happen to you guys???)

but that dreams was very vague...i guess i had it because of all the strong convictions in my life that i want my dreams so badly...

Tomorrow there is CAT...and i have not studied for the test yet...but will either later or tomorrow morning...

Anyway...THERE IS BAND SECTIONALS TOMORROW!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAY!!!!!!
You guys have no idea how happy am i...music is really important...to me...

Lord, You are the music in me...

Am i doing enough???

2007-11-20T00:20:00.000+08:00

Ok firstly i am quite sad because i have been totally missing my precious band practice because of my diploma's, camp, extra lessons and all...not that studies are not important...but i feel like i have totally neglected band so much...i really miss having band practice with my buddies and sometimes i feel like i am not playing my role being the VP by missing all the band practice... i miss band really...even my band camp is affected by my diploma this Thursday and Friday but still i know that this cant be help...plus i really really miss having band with Mr Tan...Lord if i have not done enough for band, please forgive me...

Now i just hope that i can find a time to just dwell in music with my band friends...not to say i just started playing the piccolo, i want to have more exposure in band playing the piccolo...

There so much things i wanna do for band but i just don't know...Lord give me wisdom...

Well anyway on the other hand i am thankful for my math teachers commitment to help us in math today...finally i understand logarithms seriously... Thank you so much...really appreciate it alot...

Lord troubles still fills my heart silently....

Feeling better...

2007-11-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

ok i am feeling alot better after talking...but still the thoughts are still there...

ok tomorrow there is math lesson which means one thing...i am missing my band practice... :( but as much as i love band, i believe that my math needs more help...A levels for Math is next year...God help me...

By the way i am playing the piccolo...it is in the flute family, shorter than the flute and one octave higher in pitch than flute itself...so COOL!!! didn't really get to play the piccolo in secondary school...

after a talk with one of my friend, i am much much inspired to work on m vocals...because i have slacked for about 2-3 weeks without warming up my voice and working on it...Concert is just roughly one month away..and i want this time to be better than the last 2 performance...my friend and i will be singing "Oh come all ye faithful" and "Silent night"...Lovely songs...

Ok have i also mentioned i am really caught up with the serial "As the world turns" it is very nice!!!

i went to my friends church on Saturday and it was GREAT!!!

video for today "What goes around comes around" by Colton Rudloff (18 years old and sings fantastically!!!)

I will bless the Lord forever...

feeling a little "emo"(not sure why)

2007-11-17T22:38:00.001+08:00

Ok i just came back from a meeting...like there is so much thoughts going through my head...stuff i cant understand...afraid to share...things are not as easy as it seems...mixed emotions are feeling me up to the brim...i feel that i might break down one day with all those questions in my mind...really wish someone in my shoes can hear me out...I'm sorry i didn't mean to be "emo"...trust me i love life...

Ok like recently i found out some stuff...guess i have to really find the courage to let that person know how i feel...or maybe even share my problems...i know i am not be an expert but at least i know how i feel...but how??? to tell???... lost...

why??? people make decisions then regret??? when it is too late...then they blame themselves saying"why they don't always get what they want???" quite frustrating...

not feeling well...and missed my choir practice...

Ok never mind i know i am not exactly on cloud 9 recently but i know that with time...i will feel better...

Tomorrow is Church...i will trust beyond the sky and go in faith...to get answers...

Christmas is really nearing...i am excited...i want to enjoy my Christmas this year...

heard this song just now(or maybe now) titled "The Distance" it is very nice!!!
Video for today "The Distance" by Evan and Jaron

Lord make my dreams and desires reality...

ok i am IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with MARIAH CAREY!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-15T20:54:00.000+08:00

ok recently i am really all about her... i mean she is soooo pretty, sexy, beautiful, gorgeous, basically a living goddess...with a voice so powerful, high, intense, pitched, unique like no other...she is a diva...her faith in God so sincere and true...she writes her own songs...such special songs... i am really in love with her...she's been through so much that's why her song are so powerful... love her to the max!!! this post is dedicated to her...i grew up being a Celine Dion fan but really recently Mariah have captured my heart...i will be posting three videos from Youtube and Daily motion titled "why Mariah is the best", "saving grace" and "Vision of love" (love the way she sings) no wonder she is the best selling female artist in music history...

Mariah Carey - My Saving Grace
Uploaded by ricmr83

Lord bless her...

ok came back from SEL camp+++

2007-11-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

Ok as some of you guys know that i have came back from the Sel camp...well i am not gonna blog much about it but i will some other days...

SEL CAMP
Ok the entire camp was relatively tough in some ways but it is also funs in its own way...but i really wanna thank someone who really enlighten me from the first of the camp...because it is technically my first camp...and because it is already quite tough on the first day itself...couple this two reasons feelings of going home just arise so i asked one of my friend how does he feel...no doubt he felt that the camp was quite tough but he told me just enjoy it, take in the experience and learn from it...even if it is tough, it is still an experience... Come to think of it, is quite true...i mean life would be quite boring without all sought of experience...right??? LOVELY!!! more on the camp next time...

CHURCH CHOIR
ok grool news!!! I got into the Church choir...but there is this 6 week probation thingy before i can join the choir on stage...still...LOVELY!!! ok i went for the practices and it was really fun...something like what i wanted...parts and harmonising...they sang this presentation song for church today and it was very nice...VERY NICE!!! i could see the pastor really pleased with it...i am going to work hard there and excel for God... Read this verse in the training room "Talent are gift from God but using our talent is our gift to God..." Will update more...

CAT DIPLOMA
Ok so the my accounting diploma have started on Friday and it is really fun!!! not forgetting that the lecturer is just as great...the time there is really fun and i wanna excel there... so there is like this daily test thingy going on and there is one tomorrow... and 2 sessions in fact fro 9-1 and 2-6...quite a long day...God give me strength...

Summing up
ok some interesting stuff happened yesterday when i went for choir practice and today in church...i was like 45min early for choir practice(unusual of me)...HAHA (actually i thought it started at 2 but actual time was 245...) so while waiting down stairs reading the senior pastor came out of a room and i was quite shock to see him and as usual his smile just lifted me...and i shook hands with him...something just caught my attention...and today some how when i went for church...i saw him again and shook hands with him... then i was directed all the way to the front like 2nd row from the pulpit...and again saw him there...but the interesting part happened at the end of the service...ok as your know that recently there is lots of issues going on in my life...so the altar was opened to all who need ministering...and some how the way the pastor was inviting people to come forth and it just seem as if he looked straight into my eyes, filled with peace and hope asking me to come forward...but because i was new there so didn't have the courage to step up...but I REALLY SHOULD HAVE!!!!!!!!...but somehow after the service, i felt released in some ways...so i learned that pastors really carry the presence of God that brings forth peace and joy...like Moses in the bible...Feelings i cant explain...

Video for today "At the Cross" by Hillsong(French version) LOVE IT!!!(trying to learn it but not as easy as i thought...

Ok please pray for my CAT test tomorrow...thanks and God bless...

Make me assuredly Yours...

Ok while waiting for food to digest...i am gonna blog...

2007-11-03T14:52:00.002+08:00

ok i later 530 i am going to have my choir audition YAY!!! till now i still make up my mind of the song i am singing(Although i have a few prepared)...never mind i will think about it on my way there... will blog later...

"Now is the time for us to shine,
Shine with the face of Christ divine..."

2007-11-03T14:52:00.001+08:00

okie update on yesterday...

2007-11-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

Yesterday
Alright i went to school yesterday TWICE!!! firstly at 11am plus to hand in my form for the SEL camp... then went back haha...ok then i went back again for band!!! YAY!!!! Had a great time with another conductor...and we had body percussion practice!!! SO COOL!!! amazing!!!

After the practice ended i met up with my secondary friend and i must say we had a great time together!!! I mean she is really a fun person to shop with and i am really starting to love shopping!!!! She is like my shopping sister!!! we basically went from one shop to another...i mean like literally!!! and we love "Watsons" i mean LOVE IT!!! the bigger the better...HAHA i mean Watsons have like everything from personal care to food and more stuff!!! So cool!!! Cant wait for the next shopping spree together...HAHA!!!

We then went to Diso...ok although it is fun but i still prefer Watsons (EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE SELLING ALMOST DIFFERENT STUFF) but still...moving on...she was like buying quite a few stuff for her hamsters and all even though i only bought milk shake but we spent most of the time laughing our way through the shop HAHA!!!(where's the link???) still moving on...

Alright tomorrow is band practice again!!!YAY really i love band...and it make me wonder at times where some people join a CCA that they don't like at all????????why??? why not join something you like and excel in it?

Ok the camp is coming soon...thinking about makes nervous again...ok but never i want to just enjoy myself before my diploma starts...

Video for today "Apologise" by Colton Rudloff(18 and sings really well!!!)
ok the embed thing is disabled so i will put a link below...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1PiZBHiWW4

"Before the world began,
you were on His mind...
And every tear you cry,
is precious in His sight...
Because of His great love,
He gave His only Son...
Everything was done,
so you would come...." by Hillsong ("So you would come" verse 1)

SLE camp...fun??? I hope so...

2007-10-30T22:54:00.000+08:00

ok today i went for the SLE camp briefing...and it took almost the entire day, i mean the briefing was like 5 hours long and now i just really hope that the camp will be REALLY REALLY FUN... I really hope we were in power to choose our own grouping... but the good thing about random grouping, is that we get to know more people which COOL!!! i met quite a few new and nice friends...

Ok this is also the first camp i am going and no doubt about it, i am nervous...for what??? i dont know HAHA!!! but really i dont know what is going to happen there...

well there one fun thing that i look forward to tomorrow is the band practice...come to think of it, i have never love my band this much in my secondary school...really the people here are very nice and cool...

Ok i am also in love LEONA LEWIS!!! BEAUTIFUL VOICE!!!! Love her!!!

ok the next thing is that i guess i will be working this holiday despite my diplomas...because really personally i find working really open my eyes to many thing but importantly it reminds me that money is not easy to earn as it seems because every penny that goes out of our pocket are actually hard earned money by our parents...so i am planning schedule to work in time with my diploma...hope i can cope...Lord help me, i know with You all things are possible...

ok yesterday something really bad and i am feeling extremely guilty about every word that came out of my mouth and i really hope that i can reverse everything that happen last night but i guess the hurt that's done is done...i just hope that there is till room for forgiveness...i realise that many times when we are angry that all kinds of hurting words burst forth but really word is extremely powerful and it could possibly leave a scar that could not easily be undone... "Lord, please forgive me"

Ok video for today "Bleeding Love" Leona Lewis

"Lord so much happenings recently, much emotions drowns my senses...but never let my failures keep me from Your touch...Amen"

YAY Christmas is coming soon!!! but first halloween!!!HEHEHE

2007-10-29T14:27:00.000+08:00

soooo guys!!! as you know...Halloween is coming SOON!!! is it today??? Wait let me check the calendar.................................................oh no, it is 2 more days...ok still cool anyway...by the way come to think of it there is party that i am suppose to go to, not sure where yet...hmmm never mind, i guess my classmates are planning for a party...COOL!!!! i am gonna dress as a vampire this time...hehe the last time i celebrated Halloween was like years ago and i dressed up as a male witch..."Harry Potter" but really looked nothing like him...HAHA!!!

In case you guys don't know what is Halloween all about... here a short update...
Halloween is shortened term for "All-hallow-even" it is the eve of "All hallow's day" which is know as the all saints day...

ok moving on from that, i am more excited about Christmas!!! YAY IT IS COMING SOON!!! Can't wait for it!!!! Like i REALLY LOVE CHRISTMAS!!! Besides Resurrection Sunday and good Friday...I really gonna spend my Christmas being happy and prepare myself for a start of a new year...YAY (ok i think your will find me weird posting about Christmas on the 29 of October...haha well anyways I STILL LOVE CHRISTMAS...

Ok another official announcement(I am hope there are bigger fonts)
BAND CONCERT IS COMING SOON...ON THE 15 OF DEC...SO COME BOOK YOUR TICKETS BEFORE YOU MISS IT...thanks :)...I hope that was loud enough....it is really gonna be fun...i have heard the pieces and it is really nice...i mean it...

next thing...i am having a camp soon but i got to say that i am quite nervous...because i have never gone for one in my secondary school but this time i will give it a try...hope it is fun...really love this bonding stuff...

I also want to give a shout out to one of my teacher...thanks for everything and am really grateful for your passion in teaching... will do well in your subject next year...promise...

I know i have posted this last time but for those who have not seen it...it is a must watch...FANTASTIC!!!! be blessed by their singing and music...FATASTIC!!!!

Hillsong Conference 2007 Opening
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ENJOY :)

"Be Thou my vision, oh Lord of my heart"

Hello...a short update

2007-10-28T00:49:00.000+08:00

Ok a short update...this week is filled with lots of emotions...REALLY aLOT!!!!!!! From feeling of hectics, accomplishment to joy and stress... Which is sooo totally cool...i believe we learn through these emotions...HEHE but what i love most the ability to feel and understand these emotions...and use it to my advantage...

Ok i have been hanging out these few days with one of my sec school friend...I REALLY APPRECIATE HER ALOT!!!! She is more like a sister than a friend to me...she can really understand me sooo much...i can relate to her too...we should hang out together again...OFTEN!!!

ok this week is really filled with alot of projects and stuff to do...but thanks to a bunch of wonderful friends we were able to pull through..."Friends who work together, stays together..." i believe...And thank God that the entire thing was a success and a wonderful wrap...thanks for the opportunity for doing things i have never done before...really thanks...sooo cool to act...

ok back to my roots, music... today i went to esplanade and found some more books on singing!!! wanted to borrow but i still have three books not yet finished...God help me finish...then i went to the score section..GUESS WHAT????!!!!! I FOUND THE SCORE FOR "ERIN SHORE" AND "TOSS THE FEATHER" PLAYED BY THE CORR'S SOOOOOO NICE... Really cant wait to learn those beautiful Irish pieces...but looking at the "Toss the feathers" i think i need weeks to learn it IT IS HARD!!! THE SPEED!!!

As i am blogging i am listening to "Apologise" by Timbaland..it is really nice... LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok going to sleep now...take care and God bless...

"Lord, may my desires be Your desires...Amen"