feeling a little uncomfortable...

Alright my diploma's exams is coming soon in fact next Friday...man and i am not really prepared for it...got to get my mind focused...

Like that is not the stress enough...at times i ask myself am i changing? is the "world" molding me to one whom i don't use to be...just because the world feels that the only way to be "accepted" is to live by it's standards...so sometimes the only way to live by the worlds standard is to live out a life that is outside of our own principle...i feel like that is what i have been doing and frankly i am quite tired of it...you might say that i am being exposed to my surroundings but one thing i know that, it cannot be done at my principle's expense...Life in MI has really made me grow and learn alot...i have to say that it has made me realise the good and bad that pressure from surrounding can offer...well after all this is said and done, it is still up to us to decide what to be taken in...

Went for sectionals and as usual i am extremely happy whenever there is anything to do with band... sectionals was fun...teachers in charge of band are sooo nice...really love them all...and i really like my sectional leader, we had great laughs together...

Bro/sis please pray for my voice...it has not completely recovered...thanks...

Tomorrow is the last session with my diploma tutor before my diploma's exam...

"Lord help me to rise up against the storms in my life... Lord guard me from the world's bad influence, instill in me only those that are pleasing in Your eyes...Amen..."

Band Camp was really really fun!!!

Alright i had my band camp(although i didn't stay overnight) last Thursday and Friday...We had lot of fun to be honest...i really enjoyed myself...the games and TUTORING!!! was just fantastic within all the diploma classes...I wanna get the tuner metronome... i also love the night walk...love it when i scare the hack out of people...HEHE...well but i guess it really took a toll in my voice having to scream and shout while having dry cough and all...now i am worried because the concert is just roughly 3 weeks from now...God help me...

Well to inform you guys my diploma's exam is actually in around 12 days time...and i am still quite shock that there isn't a sense of urgency in me...bad bad bad...anyway must start studying...

Well tomorrow there is extra math lesson...although i didn't do well for math in fact i did badly but because i am proud that i have a passionate teacher which makes me wanna work even harder...i have worked very hard for my math in secondary school and i will do the same in MI...Lord show me Thy wisdom...

alright another thing i wanna share is my choir practice...i have not went for about 2 weeks...and i am starting to wonder about going...something within me just feels...different...i really wanna be in a choir badly....well i don't man...i will see to it the coming Tuesday...

Ok i love the serial i watched "As the world turns" and "Holly oaks"...it has been quite long that i have watched a really nice serial...and i love this two...and i got to say that there is much out there in other countries that we don't know...

Alright video for today..."Can't touch it" Ricki Lee Coulter





Never too far away...

Tired...

Today and tomorrow is going to be a long day...I hope i can cope through well...

Ok as usual i watched Mariah singing on youtube and i really didn't know she had songs that really moved me songs like "Saving grace", "Vision of love" and "Never too far"(which is what i watched yesterday... Man it is really touching, i can tell that she almost cried...but she still remain strong that why her songs are about her life, her faith in God and walking through the rain...i really Really love her alot...

So video for today "Never too far away"



You calm the storm in me...again...

Dreams that felt sooooo real...(well i hope my dream comes true) :)

Well last night i slept late and i had dreamS ...yes a few dreams...but cant remember clearly...
But i guess one moment i was living my dream/goal and the next i was crying because my dream finally came true...I was hugging my mum...and physically i cried out but there was no tears...it really puzzled me...but i myself got shocked...waking up "crying" with neither sound nor tears....(Does this happen to you guys???)

but that dreams was very vague...i guess i had it because of all the strong convictions in my life that i want my dreams so badly...

Tomorrow there is CAT...and i have not studied for the test yet...but will either later or tomorrow morning...

Anyway...THERE IS BAND SECTIONALS TOMORROW!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAY!!!!!!
You guys have no idea how happy am i...music is really important...to me...

Lord, You are the music in me...

Am i doing enough???

Ok firstly i am quite sad because i have been totally missing my precious band practice because of my diploma's, camp, extra lessons and all...not that studies are not important...but i feel like i have totally neglected band so much...i really miss having band practice with my buddies and sometimes i feel like i am not playing my role being the VP by missing all the band practice... i miss band really...even my band camp is affected by my diploma this Thursday and Friday but still i know that this cant be help...plus i really really miss having band with Mr Tan...Lord if i have not done enough for band, please forgive me...

Now i just hope that i can find a time to just dwell in music with my band friends...not to say i just started playing the piccolo, i want to have more exposure in band playing the piccolo...

There so much things i wanna do for band but i just don't know...Lord give me wisdom...

Well anyway on the other hand i am thankful for my math teachers commitment to help us in math today...finally i understand logarithms seriously... Thank you so much...really appreciate it alot...

Lord troubles still fills my heart silently....

Feeling better...

ok i am feeling alot better after talking...but still the thoughts are still there...

ok tomorrow there is math lesson which means one thing...i am missing my band practice... :( but as much as i love band, i believe that my math needs more help...A levels for Math is next year...God help me...

By the way i am playing the piccolo...it is in the flute family, shorter than the flute and one octave higher in pitch than flute itself...so COOL!!! didn't really get to play the piccolo in secondary school...

after a talk with one of my friend, i am much much inspired to work on m vocals...because i have slacked for about 2-3 weeks without warming up my voice and working on it...Concert is just roughly one month away..and i want this time to be better than the last 2 performance...my friend and i will be singing "Oh come all ye faithful" and "Silent night"...Lovely songs...

Ok have i also mentioned i am really caught up with the serial "As the world turns" it is very nice!!!

i went to my friends church on Saturday and it was GREAT!!!

video for today "What goes around comes around" by Colton Rudloff (18 years old and sings fantastically!!!)



I will bless the Lord forever...

feeling a little "emo"(not sure why)

Ok i just came back from a meeting...like there is so much thoughts going through my head...stuff i cant understand...afraid to share...things are not as easy as it seems...mixed emotions are feeling me up to the brim...i feel that i might break down one day with all those questions in my mind...really wish someone in my shoes can hear me out...I'm sorry i didn't mean to be "emo"...trust me i love life...

Ok like recently i found out some stuff...guess i have to really find the courage to let that person know how i feel...or maybe even share my problems...i know i am not be an expert but at least i know how i feel...but how??? to tell???... lost...

why??? people make decisions then regret??? when it is too late...then they blame themselves saying"why they don't always get what they want???" quite frustrating...

not feeling well...and missed my choir practice...

Ok never mind i know i am not exactly on cloud 9 recently but i know that with time...i will feel better...

Tomorrow is Church...i will trust beyond the sky and go in faith...to get answers...

Christmas is really nearing...i am excited...i want to enjoy my Christmas this year...

heard this song just now(or maybe now) titled "The Distance" it is very nice!!!
Video for today "The Distance" by Evan and Jaron



Lord make my dreams and desires reality...

ok i am IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with MARIAH CAREY!!!!!!!!!

ok recently i am really all about her... i mean she is soooo pretty, sexy, beautiful, gorgeous, basically a living goddess...with a voice so powerful, high, intense, pitched, unique like no other...she is a diva...her faith in God so sincere and true...she writes her own songs...such special songs... i am really in love with her...she's been through so much that's why her song are so powerful... love her to the max!!! this post is dedicated to her...i grew up being a Celine Dion fan but really recently Mariah have captured my heart...i will be posting three videos from Youtube and Daily motion titled "why Mariah is the best", "saving grace" and "Vision of love" (love the way she sings) no wonder she is the best selling female artist in music history...

Mariah Carey - My Saving Grace
Uploaded by ricmr83

Lord bless her...

ok came back from SEL camp+++

Ok as some of you guys know that i have came back from the Sel camp...well i am not gonna blog much about it but i will some other days...

SEL CAMP
Ok the entire camp was relatively tough in some ways but it is also funs in its own way...but i really wanna thank someone who really enlighten me from the first of the camp...because it is technically my first camp...and because it is already quite tough on the first day itself...couple this two reasons feelings of going home just arise so i asked one of my friend how does he feel...no doubt he felt that the camp was quite tough but he told me just enjoy it, take in the experience and learn from it...even if it is tough, it is still an experience... Come to think of it, is quite true...i mean life would be quite boring without all sought of experience...right??? LOVELY!!! more on the camp next time...

CHURCH CHOIR
ok grool news!!! I got into the Church choir...but there is this 6 week probation thingy before i can join the choir on stage...still...LOVELY!!! ok i went for the practices and it was really fun...something like what i wanted...parts and harmonising...they sang this presentation song for church today and it was very nice...VERY NICE!!! i could see the pastor really pleased with it...i am going to work hard there and excel for God... Read this verse in the training room "Talent are gift from God but using our talent is our gift to God..." Will update more...

CAT DIPLOMA
Ok so the my accounting diploma have started on Friday and it is really fun!!! not forgetting that the lecturer is just as great...the time there is really fun and i wanna excel there... so there is like this daily test thingy going on and there is one tomorrow... and 2 sessions in fact fro 9-1 and 2-6...quite a long day...God give me strength...

Summing up
ok some interesting stuff happened yesterday when i went for choir practice and today in church...i was like 45min early for choir practice(unusual of me)...HAHA (actually i thought it started at 2 but actual time was 245...) so while waiting down stairs reading the senior pastor came out of a room and i was quite shock to see him and as usual his smile just lifted me...and i shook hands with him...something just caught my attention...and today some how when i went for church...i saw him again and shook hands with him... then i was directed all the way to the front like 2nd row from the pulpit...and again saw him there...but the interesting part happened at the end of the service...ok as your know that recently there is lots of issues going on in my life...so the altar was opened to all who need ministering...and some how the way the pastor was inviting people to come forth and it just seem as if he looked straight into my eyes, filled with peace and hope asking me to come forward...but because i was new there so didn't have the courage to step up...but I REALLY SHOULD HAVE!!!!!!!!...but somehow after the service, i felt released in some ways...so i learned that pastors really carry the presence of God that brings forth peace and joy...like Moses in the bible...Feelings i cant explain...

Video for today "At the Cross" by Hillsong(French version) LOVE IT!!!(trying to learn it but not as easy as i thought...


Ok please pray for my CAT test tomorrow...thanks and God bless...

Make me assuredly Yours...

Ok while waiting for food to digest...i am gonna blog...

ok i later 530 i am going to have my choir audition YAY!!! till now i still make up my mind of the song i am singing(Although i have a few prepared)...never mind i will think about it on my way there... will blog later...

"Now is the time for us to shine,
Shine with the face of Christ divine..."

okie update on yesterday...

Yesterday
Alright i went to school yesterday TWICE!!! firstly at 11am plus to hand in my form for the SEL camp... then went back haha...ok then i went back again for band!!! YAY!!!! Had a great time with another conductor...and we had body percussion practice!!! SO COOL!!! amazing!!!

After the practice ended i met up with my secondary friend and i must say we had a great time together!!! I mean she is really a fun person to shop with and i am really starting to love shopping!!!! She is like my shopping sister!!! we basically went from one shop to another...i mean like literally!!! and we love "Watsons" i mean LOVE IT!!! the bigger the better...HAHA i mean Watsons have like everything from personal care to food and more stuff!!! So cool!!! Cant wait for the next shopping spree together...HAHA!!!

We then went to Diso...ok although it is fun but i still prefer Watsons (EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE SELLING ALMOST DIFFERENT STUFF) but still...moving on...she was like buying quite a few stuff for her hamsters and all even though i only bought milk shake but we spent most of the time laughing our way through the shop HAHA!!!(where's the link???) still moving on...

Alright tomorrow is band practice again!!!YAY really i love band...and it make me wonder at times where some people join a CCA that they don't like at all????????why??? why not join something you like and excel in it?

Ok the camp is coming soon...thinking about makes nervous again...ok but never i want to just enjoy myself before my diploma starts...

Video for today "Apologise" by Colton Rudloff(18 and sings really well!!!)
ok the embed thing is disabled so i will put a link below...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1PiZBHiWW4

"Before the world began,
you were on His mind...
And every tear you cry,
is precious in His sight...
Because of His great love,
He gave His only Son...
Everything was done,
so you would come...." by Hillsong ("So you would come" verse 1)