Its been while...

Ok firstly MERRY CHRISTMAS to all... i know i have not been posting.... but heres a short update....

Mind's CAFE
Ok went out with 2 of my besties... and dang!!! it was super fun!!! seriously Mind's cafe is a place i will recommend to all... they have lots of games to play at a affordable price... Certainly a very good way to bond :D....

hmmm...

School's Start
Ok as we all know, school is starting pretty soon... for mine is on the 12th... but technically, because i have diploma as well thus mine will start on the 5th... actually surprisingly as much as some of my friend dreads the start of school, i myself am actually quite excited.... because frankly even though i have lots of time to do lots of personal stuff but really...i also want the start of school... i mean during this hols, things have been moving rather slow... beside diploma exams and band concerts and some stuff... things have been moving rather slowly...

i think its time to pick up the pace... A levels is next year... the final lap... We can make it...

TWILIGHT!!!!!!

Ok seriously, Twilight is soooooo nice!!! really it is.. i mean the love story and the vampire thingy is soooooo cool!!!!

ok moving on....

Yesterday's practice went well, i would say that i am most focused yesterday out of all practices... So tomorrow is the big and the real thing... God bless all of us... We will do a GOOD job!!!! :D yes we will....

Past few days have rather hectic with all the practice going on, it is certain that i am tired when i reach home daily but it is all worth it... I have learned new things everyday... and i would say my playing have improved YAY!!!

Ok i will blog tomorrow or something...

"O come all ye faithful"

TIRED!!!

Ok i am feeling so so tired... I think i need to go back to hybernating... Really i need to... Frankly i personally cannot stand not having enough sleep... it kinda spoils my day... Ok gonna sleep now... Take care :D

Band tomorrow...

Ok so exactly about 5 more days to my band concert... So here is a reminder if your wanna come there is still tickets... just contact me yea... :D Thanks do come support...

Nice???

This is my new blog skin thanks to BZM!!! hehe... the skin is really fresh and i really really like it :D

ok... so a short short update...

So yesterday was my T10 diploma paper and it was rather ok... besides not knowing what the question wanted in Q3... other than that, its ok....

So after paper, we went to Carl's Junior... LOVE THE BURGER!!!! even though it took us quite alot to get there( in terms of time) but it was worth it :D Guacamole burger... i love you...

Next, with my exams ending means the start of my practice for my band concert next week... got to really start practicing... hmmm yea i must...

Yesterday, on my way back i had a rather nice chat with a friend of mine... We talk we laughed and we shared... i learn that even though the world may not be as nice as it is, we tend to face up with certain problems but as long as we take it in a positive light... we can make it through the rain... anyway if you are reading this... nice chat with you...

So tomorrow, band resumes... something which i cant wait...

hmm so that all for now...

"A constant friend is He"

WOW its been while...

Ok to start off, i must say that i am very happy and at the same time bored with certain issues...

Ok the happy part is that, throughout the November, it has been a very healthy one for me... totally love the exercising routine... definitely gonna keep it up!!! thanks to you my buddy :D

plus i got the things i wanted for a very very long time!!! YAY Thanks to my mentor :D

also throughout this month i have very much to discern with regards to many issues, learning from them and not allowing it affecting you.. :P really i realise that every day is a learning process. Keep an open mind, and you will never know how much you can learn... From discerning the right friends one should have to having the right mindset towards life...

Thanks to my diploma teacher, he has really given more than a lecture... in fact his life in the business world certainly will benefit me in the future...

sooo... cat exam starts next week... revision must start too....

Recently i have also been catching up with my close buddies.... we shared, we poured and we laugh... and really times like these are memorable, just wish that i can have them 24/7.. hehe i am rather greedy...

However sometimes i am rather tired of having repeat the routine of going to school and having to face up with all the superficial laughter and conversation that often holds no substance... and i know i may sound senseless... but really i regret quarrelling with close friend and eventually parts ways with my besties like the "tree family" and my 9 year friend... because friends like them are just so freaking hard to find... DANG!!! i regret!!! freaking hack regret!!!

God if possible bring them back into my life...

Well at least all is not soooo bad after all... When one door closes, another opens... i found another... in any case all i can say is treasure all the friends you have and take none for granted... Love thy neighbour as thyself...

ok sooo moving on... coming to band... 2 more weeks to concert... band practice have been hilarious especially with the section members i have... band will never be boring especially with self entertaining friends like them... HAHA!!!!!! love them all!!! every time i think of them... i just feel like laughing...

SO Christmas is coming!!! YAY!!!!!! great!!!! love Christmas carols...and presents and not forgetting the birth of my beloved Saviour :D

Ok i know this post is rather all over the place.. i wrote it in a spur of moment... so....don't hate me while reading :D

" God bring grant me the serenity of mind,
peace to soul,
the wisdom to understand,
patience to learn,
strength to percervere,
Lastly, love to overcome all fears..."

My hands...

ok David Archuleta has this new song "My Hands" it is freaking nice!!! i love the flow of the song like how the lyrics connects.... really really good!!!

sooo today's Church Worship went very well :D there is really much to learn from alot people... remember to keep an open mind, and you will be surprised to how much you can learn from others... there is this lady PHD in MUSIC!!!!!!! LIKE seriously, playing the piano is like simply moving her fingers!!! it comes sooooo easily for her!!!!!!!!

yea so...that's it for today... gonna sleep now :D God bless...

"Let love rule..."

i'm sitting down here... but hey you cant see me....

ok just came back from church practice and man it is really fun!!!!!! even though i don't know much of the people there but at least they are really friendly... :D so tomorrow is the actual performance :D

hmmm what else... oh yes diploma, well it is definitely getting tougher... but thankfully it is related to my A level course which can help in me too.... YUP!!!

what else... oh yes diploma exams is in like 19 day??? less than 3 weeks... time to start revising...

hmmm what else... oh yes publicity for my band and ake...

Musique Unifiante
Band and Anklung concert
Date: 18 december
Place: Republic Polytechnic
Price: 8, 12 and 20

YES!!! come and support!!! tickets are for sale now... just let me know :D

"Boys meets girl and look in her eyes,
time stand still and two hearts catch fire..."

Beginning of something new...

Ok its been more than a week since i blogged... so here is a short update...

Now that exams is over, i am enjoying myself...although i must say that i am getting really sick of the game "diablo" so i think i will stop in no time... which i think is a good think for me...

On top of that my diploma have officially started, and i must say that this module is the best of all, i mean the lecturer has his own humor like saying "Come on" frequently in his lecture HAHA!!!! Band practice has also been rather hectic... as the concert is coming up...

But one happy thing is that this "holiday" for me has been a very very healthy one... hehe... been exercising rather frequent... Must keep it up... So my motto for this year end is "lose the tummy, lose the shirt"

Next i am also very happy that i am going to co lead worship in of my friends church... Praising Jesus through each trial...

what else........

oh end count down party... so some of your know that i am invited to perform at this event held i think in boonlay with other artist but they wanted videos of me performing but of all those weren't really up to standard so i suggested that they allowed me to go through an audition instead which i prefer too... so meanwhile please pray for that they will accept my request for audition... hehe thanks:D

Another thing, this years X factor season, is a very strong one... lots of really good singer, should check it out...

hmmmm???? what else.....

oh ya.... Christmas is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my favourite festival of all!!! love it.... love it.... words cant express how much i just love Christmas!!!!!!.....The birth of my Saviour....

"Friend's who pray together,
stays together..."

Exams are over!!!!!

Ok exams are finally over... can finally enjoy myself... as for the results... God bless :D

i have already started enjoying :D hehe...

So past few days have been diablo-ing, badmintoning and gym... hehe (ya me-gym...) my goal before next year is to lose about 5 kg... and i will be very very very happy....

tomorrow on the other hand is class chalet!!! well really anticipating towards tomorrow... however i feel like i am going to fall sick, due to all this late nights and all...

also band is going to resume...

hmmm what else?????

I think that is it...

"Many friends i have, but few are true,
some aren't sincere, i wish they knew...
ask me not, for i will not tell,
as i wish them well..."

Noel... Noel

Ok no particular meaning involved... i tend to sing Noel... Noel when i am nervous... LOL

So tomorrow is Chinese A level's the first A level paper i am actually going to take... but what make me worried the most is my math which is next Tuesday... Lord help me

So from now till then i need lots of grace and prayers...

From tomorrow onwards math will be my girlfriend for the next 6 days(like many of my friends for WR)... then i will probably dump her for another girl called "OP".... :D so from now till then, i am going to be quite a heart breaker :D.... lol lame...

Music update
Ok MC's new single "I Stay In Love" music video is out! YAY!!!!

Dang the song is just so emotional love it to the max... one magazine said that it is like the next "We Belong Together"... Love ya Mariah!!!

anyway here's another fantastic singer...i will definitely miss him...Jan Werner...




Lord Thy wisdom i need...

Tired

Well past few days have been rather tired due to WR and stuff... but the good thing is that, WR is over... now left with OP and I and R... Thank God :D

So now moving on to A levels, next week is MT followed by math the week after... i know right, tell me about it... HAHA really got to "chiong" like never before... :D

Emotions
Well i am feeling rather happy though i am tired... not sure why... HEHE but in any case i am happy...

The joy of the Lord is my strength...

Friends
Well recently saw my beloved "Mua Chee" sista... miss her so much... we should start hanging out after my H1 A levels...

"Whom have i in heaven...but You,
There's none i desire besides you..."

I need...

FOCUS AND DISCIPLINE....

Lord grant me the focus, discipline and wisdom needed to run this lap...

All glory to Your name,
All honour to Your majesty...

Hello people :D

ok so its been quite awhile of stuff going recently, so i didnt really have the time to post about anything...

School
Well school has been really fun... i feel that i have been learning alot... especially math and Chinese... i am growing to love these subjects more and more...

Weight lose
Ok i after some strict dieting and exercising, i have LOST WEIGHT!!!!! YAY!!!! i wanna lose more... about 5 kg then i am very very happy... hehe....

Pw
Ok these few days, PW is really taking its toll on me... but i know for the A's sake, it is all worth it...

Promotion Exercise
Ok this wednesday is the Promotion exercise... i really want to get promoted... i am studying hard now and i will study even harder next year....

God grant me the desires of my heart...

1 Month left...

Well today is the start of the math banding, i must say things are going well... i want this to last throughout this one month... :D

Ok so what to blog???? hmmmm i am not sure actually just have this "rushy" feeling due to the H1 A levels coming soon... but i would think this as positive as it reminds me that there isn't time to waste... only one month left... not much time... :)

I wanna thank all the teachers that have in the hard work throughout this year too...

What else??????

oh F1... ok i didn't exactly see the F1 race except through my friends phones that has a 5 second clip besides that i only heard the sound of the race in NLB and man it is LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO SO SO LOUD!!! i was like up in 11 story and still could hear it!

Music
alright recently the song "Crush" by David Archuleta has been in my mind because it is soooooo nice!!!!!!!!!!

Yea i think that's all for tonight... got to sleep early to face tomorrow :D

"Lord Thy wisdom gives me strength,
give me the discipline that i lack and need... Amen"


i know this crush ain't going away...

Its Over... :(

Ok recently one of my favourite couple from soap opera "Holley oaks" have ended AHHHHHH!!!!!!! i want more of them! dang dang dang!!! Love the show so much...

Well yesterday my Econs gave back the teacher back this test paper that we have done in our CA and i did very badly! I don't know i just cant to seem to do well like in year one...

Moving on, on the better side, i went on a trip with my Favourite Chinese Teacher to this Japanese tomb to check it out and relate to our text books and get a experience of the place... that was really fun... on our way back many thing happen, like my freaking on gave up on me! the buttons suddenly froze and the phone is only good for picking up calls... THAT'S IT!!!! went to pongol then went to City Hall after the long travelling at least we got to study a little while and thank goodness it was productive :D

Promos
So now for promos i am feeling rather calm( a little worried though)... but in any case i will work on my math and mother tongue... must do well for my H1 no matter what!

Thoughts and emotions
Well i have been feeling rather free these days... really don't wanna be tied down by things or people, guess thing like this will only happen when you learnt to face it...

Ok tonight's blogging...

alright... here is a little short log before i go to sleep...

Well tomorrow is the start of school again... i am feeling happy and little reluctant at the same time... but in any case i think i still just have to go and hopefully things wont be saddening...

Well tomorrow i heard that there is actually some sort of post activities etc... i just wish that i dont want to get back my results that soon... haha...

moving on... tonight is actually the one day where i wanted to hang out with my mum, so as usual i bugged her to bring me out haha...

dont know why but recently i just feel quite weird and everything seems very weird... I just feel at times things may change and i may not be able to catch up or adapt with it... hmmm something must be done...

Lord my God to you i pray,
Sanctify my heart, soul and ways
for none like You have i seen,
never will i forsake you for sin...
my prayer to You shall stay true,
for theres none i want but You...


"There can be miracle,
when you believe...
though hope is frail,
it's hard to kill...
who knows what miracle,
you can achieve...
when you believe,
somehow you will...
you will when you believe..."

fun fun fun :D

Well yesterday was rather fun... hang out with friends and all :D even though during the journey there was a little sparks here and there but overall it is actually very fun...

Trip to town
I bought new shoes and a rather funny pencil box... hehe very happy but still could be happier if i bought the heel cup for my heels :D still very fun... but somehow my wallet was crying, i spent nearing 90 dollars... but it is still worth it... hehe

New guitar
Ok i know i am a feeling cranky or something, but i feel like buying a classical guitar technically to harden my skin to play the semi acoustic guitar... i have one but it hurts like... (you know)... so i think i will just get a cheap one... but overall i will se first... :D

Message brought
Well with regards to my last post which officially is my most PISSED Post but still i am really glad that people have got my message but really try not to contact me now or you will get a verbal assult so for now just back off :D

Cranky me
Ok i know that school is starting officially tomorrow but i know that the past few days of holiday's has its ups and downs... but still i must admit that i have cranky especially in the way i talk or maybe at times i may be little hostile in conversation with things i firmly believe in... i'm sorry and i know i could have brought it out i nicer manner.... plus i fel that even though i have went out but i still feel that i have somehow not utilised my holidays to the max... :( So in any case i must start preparing for my H1 A levels...

Feelings and emotions
I really dont know why have been rather emo this few days... just somehow want to be alone at times... I think i am more of a free spirit recently, meaning i may not stick to a certain group when hanging out as i wanna open myself to different people... i realise that if you dont open yourself up to the people around, you may miss out alot...

Games
good news, i am totally sick and tired of playing Diablo... YES!!!! so no worries of me sleeping late just to level up and all...hehe

Missing people
Well i must admit that there are people whom i am missing right now but due to school and stuff we tend not to be able to catch and have fun... not to mention that this always happens when people are attached... well i cant blame them, this is life... get real...

Musically
Well due to me being cranky resulted in me reallying being extremely defensive over musician i love like Mariah Carey... I mean i am fine with people expressing their opinions on about singers/artist but i cant stand when they criticise... so on youtube i actually rebutted those who compared MC to other artist like Maddonna negatively...so i had to REBUTT(i am ok with different artist and their music but dont ever insult MC... cause i will snap back real hard) you may find my comment in youtube under "zannyzanezane89"... HAHA i have never been like this, so i guess this is what being a fan of someone feels like... :D however take note it is not obsession... because really i love MC for her voice, and songs that she writes to encourage people and actually have saves lifes... recent youtubing, i have found fans who thanked MC for her songs that brought them strength and sailed them through tough times...thats the power of music...

Well this is quite alot for today... maybe more tonight depending on how i am feeling...

expressions...

well i have something to say well it is targeted towards my secondary school friends... firstly i must say that people tend to forget each other when some people come back to their lives and somehow in one way or another, you tend to be left out.. well provided if you were even close friends to them in the first place... haha well anyway i could not care less, but to state things, i am not jealous of anything but i just hope that you will come to realisation that, that's not the way to treat your friends... take recent teachers day for example you guys didn't even ask me along... HA! so much for tree family... secondly, recent birthday you guys didn't tell me about it... maybe there may people whom i am not so keen to see but still You particularly being my "friend" could actually let me know where were your going to celebrate... in anycase i don't know why i am talking about this but man what are blogs for??? EXPRESSION!!!

So in any case please don't you ever dare to treat me like spare tire(in replacement of someone)... because you can simply loose my number... and if you reading this(i hope you are) i hope you get what i mean... and i mean it...

Well maybe a tiger really never changes its strips...

Poison milk
i believe recent milk incidents have really gave us quite a shock... really disappointed with these people... for money they will do such stuff to even babies???!!!! Gosh where is their conscience???? seriously law and justice must be brought forth to punish this indescribable black hearted sellers! to whom money is probably their only goal resulting in all this cruel acts that caused so much trouble to people... i used to be very cautious with things i buy that made in... (you know where) but just when my friends told me that it is safe and things there are trustable, guess what they just made me loose confidence in their products... but what's worst is the babies that have died from it... GRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lord bring forth your justice upon these people, hear the cries of the babies that have suffered and people whom have fell victim to this unclean food... let judgement be brought forth... but nonetheless let mercy flow with it too...

Thoughts and emotions
Actually recently i have been thinking about stuff i have actually wanted to blog about very personal stuff but because i feared that it may too hurting and stuff....so i will start blogging :D

Paper is over!!! YAY!!!

Well first i would like to say that my paper have officially ended on Thursday! cool... so as i promised myself i have been playing game for the past few days... till right now i am SICK!!! How great... well all the late night and less water intake is going to cost your health... grrr i hate feeling sic... what's more it is after my exams... i don't care!!! by hook or crook i am going to get myself recovered by tomorrow!!!

Happy Birthday
Anyway here is to one of my brother.. Will.I.am... Happy birthday to you!!! God bless you and may all your wishes come true... sorry i was not there for your party...

Sista
The day before my accounts paper i met one of my secondary school friend... she is like my sister... well the meeting was actually unexpected... but we saw each other at Macdonald's and really i felt that i have missed out alot... Conversation with her made me realise that people come and go... as long as we keep our hearts firm to what we have and instead of chasing things we don't, we will never be empty...

Thoughts and emotions
Well recently i had some conversation with friends... and to my surprise, i have learnt alot... to cut the story short, be yourself and accept yourself for who you are... love yourself... because in order for people to love you, you NEED to love yourself first... even though words of people may have hurt you, just Shake it off learn that people who cant accept you for who you are, then THEY don't deserve you... so please friends, don't tear yourself to fit what the world want you to be...

Recent days have been rather deep... thoughts and opinions have formed in my head... and many times i learn that it is not to everyone that you can openly share you opinions or problems... because ultimately even may end up getting slapped in your face... Though i am taught love my neighbor as myself but still i cant stand superficiality/ plastics...

all in all i am however really glad for the friends i have... i know i know people say that i am too friendly but it is result to me being really lonely and introvert in my lower secondary... now that i have friends i have learn to appreciate them even more... people are just very funny, they will never learn to appreciate things until they lose them... how funny is that... but it is true...

Mariah Carey
Well if you are free MC performed "I'm that Chick" on fashion rocks... and man to people who say she have lost her voice... well think again!

Lord shield me from the superficiality of this world,
let me be true to myself that i can be true to others...

Well 2 more papers to go!!!

Ok i am really happy that there is only 2 more paper to go before a short break and start of H1 revision... I am been "fasting" from playing games(if that is the right word)... haha but really i am very happy that i can play after exams... and time to hit the gym and lose some weight... haha

Well firstly i wanna wish my "sis" a big big happy birthday to you!!! really sorry that i cant celebrate with ya due to my promos but anyway may your wishes and dreams come true... God bless your every move...

oh one more thing i would like people to know about MC... Before anyone of us forgets, Mariah Carey actually writes or co-writes her own songs... so be a lamb and give her recognition... :D

"You hold my every moment,
You calm my raging seas,
You walk with me through fire,
and healed all my dieases...
I trust in You..."

Just stand up...

Just Stand Up
Well recently there is this show America where people come together to combat against cancer... it is really nice to see that the entire nation come together and combat cancer... truly it is a war... and it is really touching... seriously... and not to mention singer and musician came together and performed together... and well you can hear the song i have posted just stand up is sang by various singer and of course by my favourite Mariah Carey... really meaningful song...

Exams
Well this past few days is all about exams... well i hope that i will do well... :D

Song Writing
Oh yea just wanna share this... Well i remember around 2 years back i wrote this Christian song... and amazingly i have friends from other churches who ask me whether they can use that song in their cell groups... SO COOL!!! i am really happy that the song i wrote can actually touch the people around me... I am going to be more appreciative of the things and blessings God have given me...So after exams i decided to write more songs...

Math
Well i just have math exams today... i must really say that the paper is relatively easy IF YOU STUDIED... Well in my case don't really feel prepared for it though... but really even after promos i still have my math to buck up and not to mention... like my MT teacher said, this may be the last time taking Chinese exams depending on what course you take in the future... So technically this is the last race...

Fat Fat Fat!!!
Guess what???!!!!!!! I have grown Fat or to nicely put it, more prosperous... I have been eating and seating and sleeping... plus stress... haha how great i have gained a few kg... and friends reading please...don't Discriminate... :D Well i will start exercising after promos...

Elliot Yamin
Ok recently heard this singer Elliot Yamin.. and you guys should out his song titled "wait for you" man it is really nice!!! seriously

Nice chat session
Well today talked to friends today... thanks for the chat... Really help me express me inner thoughts... you guys are the type of friend i really appreciate the alot... Thanks once again...

Random thoughts
Just feel like saying this... I AM OVER YOU!!! HA!!!

"Light up the dark, if you follow your heart
And it will get better
Through whatever"

Exams starts tomorrow...

Well exams starts tomorrow beside our GP which started last week...

"Lord i pray for your wisdom upon all my friends..."

Almost a week...

well to start of... 5 more days to my promos... how great :D

Well this past week has been quite fun... firstly we celebrated teachers day... i mean really it is a day where us students should really reflect on what our dear teachers have done for us... really we should all be grateful...

Another thing is s=this past week have made me realise that there could be actually fun in studying. I mean not to sound like i do Extremely well for my studies but really when you sit down and like the things taught in school and absorb it, there is actually much fun in LEARNING!!!

hmmmm what else... yea i after my H1 A's i would like to work again... miss the working experience.. because frankly working has made me realise that money does not come easily and of not to mention the maturity and Independence... love them all.... Definitely wanna go back to Ferragamo... love the staff there alot!!! really nice....

oh another, recently my friends have posted about their favourite top 5 male, female and groups... well in any case here's mine(not like you guys don't already know)...

Top 5 male
Anthony Callea(All time Favourite!!!), Lee Ryan(Current Favourite), Andrea Broceilli, Josh Groban, Brian Mcknight

Top 5 Female
Mariah Carey(All time Favourite!!!!!!), Celine Dion, Whitney Houston, Leona Lewis(Current favourite) and Christina Aguilera

Top 5 Groups
Lifehouse, Hillsong, Celtic Women, Planet Shakers, Boy2men

well will be going off now... Take care :)

HAHAHA!!!

guess what?!!!!!!!! I have slept since 7 yesterday!!! YAY!!!! soooo happy.... well bye bye now...gonna go to school...

Well it is almost one full WEEK!!!!

Any here's the update if you are awaiting for...

Throughout last week, things have been quite good just that i did do very well for my test and all... but i know that perseverance is the attitude that turns failure into success...

Well life has it fair share of fun as well despite all the hustle and bustle... not sure is it the jokers jokes are getting more hilarious or maybe in the midst of stress this just help me find joy... but in any case, i am really thankful for the people around me... Thanks so much...

Promos
Well promos is just exactly 2 weeks away.. and my heart is pumping quite fast when i remind myself... it is either i make or break it.. i must do well...

so no more nonsense within these 2 weeks... in fact even after promos i still have my math and Chinese to catch up for A level's... So if i get a little "withdrawn" I hope you guys will understand...

Music
Well music will be very important especially in this period.. because i learn better with music... HEHE;) and ipod is really effective in group studies because not just does it help you study, block out external noises and it also help decrease distraction ALOT!!!... which is why Ipod are sooooo important to me...

Random
Well been through some thoughts... i think i have decided to move on...

Suprised!!! i am really am...

Well today i was quite surprised with my cat results.... i still clearly remember when i came out of the examination hall, i was really beaten down... despite retaking, i had this feeling that i need to retake again!!! and i was quite sad though... but some how today when i log in to check my results, i actually passed... i was really really shocked!!! i mean i was like even prepared to retake... in any case, Thanks God for it :)

Well tomorrow is another day, and according Mr Singh we have around 7 more days including tomorrow before our promos... ahhhh!!! nervous is like the word now... i think i really need to double my pace of studying and make sure that i don't slack anymore...

And tomorrow there is math till 9pm... I will pull through...

EOM

ok i just submitted my EOM... and i have a very strong feeling that i am going to get scolded..AGAIN!!! but in any case i think i have done my best. Somehow i did it alot easier to speak than to write...if only every single can be taken orally, i will be so much more confident, they don't have to tolerate my ugly hand writing...

Anyway moving on... i wanna talk a little about procrastination...
Well i think i am quite a perfect example of procrastination... i woke up at 12 pm in the afternoon and guess what????!!! i only only start on my work at 9pm how great!!! with all the eating(no wonder i am growing...) and sleeping like a pig of which i already am... oh wait and PLAYING non stop!!! oh my my... i should have trusted my given instinct that's to GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway thankfully i get to finish my stuff. So hopefully my EOM will be like 10,000 times better than the first...
School starts tomorrow...some how i dread for it to start because i know that there's TBT to always remind us of the test in every single lesson of his and not to mention Mr Singh constant reminder of the days left to our promos...no wonder stress level is always on the rise... what a way to start my beautiful morning... :)

But i know that with all these said and done, it is all for our own good... at the end of the day, our teachers and staff of school still get paid but it's our A level that determines our place in University... So thanks teachers and staff for reminding us of the reality :)...


Random

Well things have been rather rough lately with some band happenings and school staff... but i guess i am so tied up that my problems seems to be gone. But no doubt i am still missing someone out there...

YAY!!! a great job!!!

Well today i did my very first worship with a group in a church... SOOOOO COOL!!!! i want to do it again.. :) And i think i have improved in singing in areas such as doing parts(with my friends help) and vocal acrobats... Of which i thank God for :) Well there is this saying "If you eat the fruit of the giants, you will become a giant" listening to great singers(Example, Mariah Carey...hehe) will definitely improve your singing some ways...

I really wanna do well in singing... Will definitely work towards it... Oh and i thank my teacher for being so supportive too :)

Anyway, now i can focus 100 percent on my studies since i have did the worship, so i told myself until end of H1 A level then only will i start taking up performances...

hmmmm what else??? Oh yea EOM is due tomorrow... Hope that i will do a good job...

Last but not least, i am thankful for the caring, loving and talented people around me... like today's Church that i went to... I mean the people there are just sooooo nice!!! NOT TO MENTION THE FOOD!!!! OMY GOODNESS!!! OFFICIALLY THAT BEST CHURCH FOOD LIKE EVER!!!

Random thoughts
Recently have watched some videos on youtube and it made me wonder how will it be like for in maybe 3 years down the road??? you never know what will happen... but i trust that things will work out best for those who trust in HIM.

Miss your voice...

Another week ending soon...

Well here is some update...

Officially as of Wednesday, i have step down from my post in the band. Something which i must say that i am happy about... not just less load but positively i can focus more on my TMP! I know that i didnt do well for this year Transcendence... the best performance i had so far was the one i had with Esther last year singing "The Prayer". But i know that i must make up for my mistakes this time for cracking!!! and everything... I really wanna do well in singing... SERIOUSLY!!!

PW
Sometimes i feel quite terrible that i cant contribute the way my leader wants me to... it is not that i am not doing my stuff properly but it is some habits that i must get rid of example writing exactly the way i speak... so during report and all there needs to be some changes. But nonetheless i still love my entire group no matter what they say to me.

School
Well exams is coming really soon and my heart is beating fast as i type this statement so it is really no time for fun already, to make up for losses often take sacrifices of something else... so actually it took me awhile to decide not to perform teachers day... Never mind end of year The Ang will strike back :)

Church Performance
As of now, this Saturday will be last performance i will not be taking up any other until at least the end of my H1 A levels. No doubt this time is also quite rush we only had so far one rehearsals and tomorrow is the second one and not to mention that this Saturday is the actually performance... But...I have faith...

Mariah Carey
People who know may probably think i am crazy of something... but really past few days i just cant seem to get enough of Mariah Carey's music!!! seriously even in school her songs will just run randomly through my head... i really admire her God given talent!!! Fantastic!!! AHHHHHH I LOVE HER!!! Seriously come to think of it, her music is like my daily vitamin before i go to school... Recently heard this song of hers "Open arms" seriously it confirmed that MC can really do many genre of music, from R and B to gospel to pop to my favourite, BALLAD!!! and many more.... No wonder she is the best selling female artist in HISTORY!!! Take that man!!!



"So now I come to you with the open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am with the open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me
Open arms..."

Missing you here with me...

Well had fun today...

Today went studying with a friend... i must say that it was really fun... we talk about Music!!! and man it is really nice that people who have the same passion come together and share about their experience... and i must that he is a really nice guy :) really opened me to alot more about Chinese instruments... thanks i love the GU ZHEN ALOT NOW!!!

Fun week

Well how should i put it??? I have not been to school since last Thursday. That gives me about 5 days break. I do feel bad however that i did join my band. But i am really glad that all these CCA are officially out my way!!! YES!!! i am really really happy!!! now i can focus on my studies!!! YAY!!!

I think from now onwards no more nonsense, i really have to mug like never before to make up for my losses in the beginning of the year. I will get there...

Recently i have been frustrated with the lack of time to do my stuff, i know people will probably mention time management but seriously if there isn't even time, there is nothing to manage. Now however is no longer the case, i have time and i know that i have to manage it properly because at the end of the day everyone is going to UNI, no matter how much they may be your "brother" or whatever, they will still carry on with or without you. So seriously, "brotherhood" or any other form of distraction... i am going to be quite serious from now on...plus i have been seriously under performing...so... no more nonsense...

Anyway enough of serious talk recently this song has been in my head "One sweet day" by Mariah Carey and Boy 2 men!!! As usual Mariah is FANTASTIC!!! and man i really like Boy 2 men too... Seriously, Mariah Carey to me, personally, in my opinion, has the most fantastic voice like ever!!! Really, i doubt anyone can sing songs of hers like "Vision of Love" and many many more... After listening to the song "One Sweet Day" man i am blown away!!! I grew being a Celine Dion Fan but really after listening to Mariah Carey, i just fell in love with her Straight away and she became my favourite!!!... I still love many other singers namely Celine Dion, Whitney Houston, Christina Aguilera or the recent diva in the making Leona Lewis!!! I LOVE THEM ALL!!! I think they are FANTASTIC IN THEIR OWN WAY!!! and if there is a diva's night in Singapore i will DEFINITELY GO!!!!

Happy belated birthday SINGAPORE!!! :) I love my country!!!

The craziest thing for love...

The craziest thing I have done for love is to fall for one whom i know that it will not happen. Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008. (http://www.yu-ai.blogspot.com/)

Well tired as usual

Anyway here a short update on the recent update...

Well i must say that i am tired out and i really need a break not from studying but from everything else besides studying... really to be frank i am really tired of CCA's and other commitments... I really need time to sit down to study something which i don't really have... yes i know people talk about time management but the thing is that every time when i reach home i am already more or less worn out... so really i am getting very frustrated at times because this is like for once i wanna study but then all these kind of external stuff just comes along... grrrrr....

Sometimes i really hope that i can get "suspended" for the right reason of course, so that i can finish my homework and study by myself... well i think i am a independent learner, meaning i learn best by myself and if anything i don't understand i'll ask teacher... so "suspension" seems like the best choice for me... just that i dont want the bad record...

on the other note about my personal stuff... well i must say that it has got alot better with the emotions and all but i really hope that i will have the strength to carry on...

His eyes is on the sparrow...

What a terrible day...

Well i must say that yesterday on Tuesday, my day didn't really start off well in anyway... Basically things just went wrong... I was so tempted to scream across the class...I dont know why, it just seems that the odds were stacked against me... as if life is never busy enough in anyway... GRRRRRR!!!!!!!

Well that aside... at least at the end of the day, something productive was actually produce especially math!!!

Then when i came home, guess what???!!! another big blow!!! I watched my performance on Transcendence... personally i find that I was not really up to standard at all... it is nothing to do with my pianist(He did great!!!)... it's just me!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I remember i was soooooo pissed with everything today that i feel like creating another blog just for screaming my heart out!!! When so many stuff are happening at one shot!!!

frankly i am lost, this year never really started out the way i wanted... with my results dropping like nobodies business!!! ahhhh!!! I cant even express what i want to say... but i know that i have been caught in some stuff... I know that i have no one to blame but myself... now i have to mug like nobody's business...

"Small but still, Resilient voice,
says help is very near..."

Trancendance performance...

Well here is an update on Transcendence last Saturday... Well we started out meeting around 9am in the morning... saw some of my schoolmates outside... Well i must say that we didn't really start out the day well. There were actually some misunderstanding and unhappiness but after that the entire team moved very well... Through this i must say that even though stuff may happen but we know that when it is time to perform and do our best... We will do it!!!

Anyway first of all i want to start out thanking all my pals who have came down to support!!! even though it may not what you guys expected of me... but nonetheless i hope that you have enjoyed yourself... Even though I cracked(My first time in MI) and funny thing is that, it happened not on the high note but the note after that!!! come to think of it, it is actually quite funny... HAHA!!!

Well through this i must say that MI really has talent!!! a bunch of them are really talented!!! Even though some didn't perform but seriously they should!!! Fantastic!!!

hmmm so i am also feeling very that teachers said that i have improved vocally!!! YAY!!! but they funny thing is that i actually did alot lesser warm up and stuff... i know this is not right... about a week or 2 before performance singers should go into this extra vocal care mode... It helps protecting the vocal chords and many stuff... In fact singers should always be on constant vocal care... So i guess this time was really God's grace over me... Thank You Jesus...

MI Mart
Well i will be performing outside plaza Singapura... do come and support :) Not sure what to sing though... hehe but roughly have an idea in my head... yup... quite excited... my first public performance hehe...

Well recently i have found out this band called "Stentorian" they are really good!!! Love the bleeding love version!!!



so i will also be helping in one of my friends church for this Worship session... COOL!!! but i really hope that i can commit to it as band will be performing the national day...

Well that's all :)

Thank You Lord for Thy grace and mercy that flows graciously... Thank You Jesus...

Trancendance!!!

Ok tomorrow is Transcendence performance!!! I am excited and happy. I just really pray that everything will go well and please pray that I don't get nervous and go flat. Well for those who want the tickets do come down and there will be a booth there.

Time: 3Pm - 5PM concert starts (come around 2.45 to purchase tickets)

Location : Millennia Institute Centre stage

Price: $8

Well that's all... i am going to sleep now...

Lord into Thy hands i commit my Spirit...

Short update...

Ok anyway i came back from night study... and i really realise that the school is actually very nice to us... students... I really find it fruitful today... hopefully i will last...



I am also really grateful generally to the friends around me who have been so understanding and helpful in all that i do... I will always be grateful...



This Saturday is Transcendence!!! COOL!!! Do come down and support... :)

So how do i get over you...

random

Ok i dont really know... what to post... hmmm

ok i know....

Transcendence Rehearsal
Well on Wednesday i had my rehearsal... and i must say that i feel really unprepared... i felt like it was quite terrible... hmmm sometimes i just feel like backing out... but that would be very irresponsible of me toward my duet partner... i am sorry...

Thank goodness in some ways because for the coming month i only have just 1 band performance instead of 3... I guess we all need a break somehow... so guys really take a good break and give our best on national day :)

Well i have one more upcoming performance still not sure what song to sing... Either "Time of my life" or " Always be my baby" or even both... Well i recently i am quite addicted to David Cook's music... personally i feel that he has a really good voice...

Racial Harmony
Well tomorrow MI will be celebrating racial harmony day!!! Frankly i really enjoy celebrating such festival because i believe that people of different races can come together and get to know each other better. I particular love my Secondary school where everyone dress up in different races costumes and the best class wins... FUN!!!

Maybe we're friends,
maybe we're more,
maybe it's just my imagination...

One week after the start of school...

Alright where should i start with????

Anyway i didn't do well for my exams at ALL totally!!! Kinda sad though but i know that i have improve in many subjects. Like my econs i improved by 100% HAHA cool right!!! and GP and Mother tongue... I really love econs and wanna do well in it... By the way i actually feel kinda bad because during my period of failing m exams i know that i have disappointed quite a few teachers such as my Math and Accounts teacher. It is ok... whats done is done... i know that i will not repeat this mistake again...

National Band Competition!!!
Anyway i wanna say that i am proud with my band!!! i really really am and totally in love with everyone of them!!! you guys rocks!!! We got Silver this time but even though we aimed for gold but remember that this is our first time and if we can get silver for this competition we never know how much more we can achieve!!! SYF gold is at hands!!!

Upcoming week
Well the upcoming week will still kinda be busy for me as i have 2 more events after which i tell myself not to take up anyone after my H1 A level... Firstly Transcendence.... of which i don't feel prepared as we are all busy and all during the holidays taking place next Saturday... i just pray very hard that is will be a good performance... Secondly Mi Mart... which will take place in the 2nd of August... outside Plaza Singapura...

Personally
Well i have been feeling much much better as i constantly remind myself of the strength in me... Despite how much the world may try to make me feel bad or inferior compared to them... i know for sure... the Lord will exalt the humble and bring down the proud...

" You go before me,
You shield my way,
in every season... i know You love me..."

First proper day of school

Ok today is the first day of school... i must say that it definitely isn't a ray of sunshine...

Sad news
First i started my day with a very tired body because i slept late and reason for doing so... playing computer games.

Secondly, for my PE game grouping i got into hockey and really my cup of tea... I have always wanted to play volleyball...

Thirdly, i did very badly for my math... and i mean really bad...

Good news
Well not all hopes is lost, for my Chinese i am really happy that the teacher said i have improved!!! YES!!! actually i think i could have passed if i read the question even more clearly.

and the reflection that my math teacher asked me to write have kinda renewed this light in me...

Personal stuff
Actually this few days have even help me high lighted clearly who are those friends whom i can really trust and reply on... somehow these few days i just am able to see it clearly. Some just want to tear you down and some just really pesky... however there are also some that i can really hold onto like those who care and concern... I am thankful i can discern...

I have also come to terms with myself not to get into emotional stuff that wont really help in my life... or even get myself hurt... so i am just going to take it easily...

Oh and recently i realised that i have been relatively cold or irritating to some people... but really if i have hurt anyone recently i am sorry about it... maybe it is because i am going through some stuff in my life that is why... sorry about it...

I will arise safe and sound... and make it through the rain...

As for my math... I will not sit and wait for miracle, but perform the unthinkable...

Lord you are my strength...

Man i am exhausted!!! 5/7

Well today i went to Sentosa to a group of my friends... and it was very enjoyable!!! Although it rain a little here and there... but still it is the companion among great friends that matter :)



Anyway i have meet someone even though i had a feeling i will meet him somewhere or some time... and we did... but anyway, if you are reading this, sorry if your friends felt...you know... but we are really comfortable with you guys...and sorry if i was quite harsh with my attitude towards you...i just playing around :)... but still...you're irritating... HAHAHA just kidding...



Anyway...i am totally beat out... i slept really according to my time and woke up really early according to my time... and did quite a work out... i feel... but it was all VERY VERY FUN!!! i think i will make it a hadbit to visit Sentosa at least once a month... hehehe...



anyway next week is going to be a long and pretty much dreadful to a certain extent firstly positive forward looking to getting back results for some subjects and negative for some... PLUS!!! the entire week of next, there will be band... man i hope i will have the energy to pull through... anyway gonna sleep now... take care and God bless ya'll :)

Exams!!!! Officially over...

YAY last paper was like yesterday!!! finished with my Chinese A level oral... although for my accounts paper which suppose to be upon 100 turn out to be 75 because i skipped the last question!!! grrrr... i really didn't know how to do it... and i know for sure that this second paper is really gonna affect my entire accounts paper... Well i know i can do better, and i know this is not the end of it...

However i thought that my Chinese oral was quite interesting...i thought would do badly well at least for my reading... but for my passage i am quite confident that i will do will in that area... Well i did my best HAHA :) Its Chinese!!!

so i know that now i have exactly 3 more days before facing the music of our results. so.... meaning i am going to PLAY!!! sooo well yea erm hmmm i am going to enjoy myself...

Recently
Well recently i have got to know a few more friends better and clearer. And actually they are very nice people... i am also grateful that there people who are actually open and understanding and accepting to certain issues... thanks you people...

Well recently i am feeling lots of surges of inspiration to write and desire to sing parts and just make music!!! Really i cannot imagine my life without i music... I will totally CRY without it!!! Thank God for it... anyway few days back as i have mentioned that i want to write songs for mothers... i will get to it soon... so over the next few days i pray for inspiration...

Oh next week my friends and i plan for a performance at Esplanade library open mic... So i hope that it will turn out well... but somehow there is this affirmation that i will do well... SO EXCITED!!!

"Before the world began,
you were on his mind..
and every tear you cry,
is precious in His sight...
because of His great love,
He gave his only Son...
Everything was done,
so you would come..." "So you would come" by Hillsong

In my life be lifted high...

1 more to go!!!

ok econs paper today is quite cool... man it has been a long long time since i wrote this much... well i am quite happy with the paper today but i know i could have done much better... for sure i know i will do better than my common test... With You i'll walk the raging sea...

Anyway here is still accounts... Lord guide me... I really wanna do well for this paper even though i realise that i have been distracted with certain stuff this first half of the year but i know i will not bring it with me anymore...

Ok yea cant wait to meet up with my sis this week not to mention after my chinese a level oral... It has been quite a long time since we actually met... i miss her...

Ok a recent update musically... well i was suppose to find a voice teacher/ vocal couch and utilise the funds given by my school... and i actually found one while i was studying!!! how cool is that... her back ground info are rather impressive but because with her given course fee i can only attend about 2 month of lesson before the i use up the funds left... but anyways i will still enquire with the 2 that have been recommend... and... yup definitly wanna start classes after the exams...

and i have rather addicted to life house!!! Love Jason Wade's voice!!! and his songs!!! guess it is so meaningful and inspiring because of his life journey... Well i love his singing alot!!! and Lee Ryan... solid vocals!!! and Jordin Sparks!!! and of course not forgetting Mariah Carey... love her always!!!


one thing i also realise... that the many times the reason why some songs are so powerful in terms of the impact it has on the hearer is because of the writers life experience... because "Whatever does not kill you make you stronger" So i really love songs like this... ALOT!!! i find it sooo comforting to listen too... it can be so powerful that actually transcend time and space... those songs may be written 10 years ago or even in some small part of a country but today it will still stay true and beautiful... Lord i wanna write songs like this... help me Jesus

Well i have actually written a few songs... i need to find a time to do a actual proper cover... however recently this title "Song for Mothers" have been popping out of my head... i know for sure i will write it down... for my mum... and other mums too... :) well Father's will have to wait... HAHA

"Lord i know that i am imperfect,
still You love me as i am...
grace You've withheld not from me,
and love You've given abundantly...
if i were to stray away,
set me back and pave my way...
For i know that Your the only One,
i wanna spend my life with You... my days..."

Went to Church today:)

Well its been quite a log while since i went to church... to be exact 1 month!!! Well today had a praise and Worship Session... cool love IT!!!!!



Anyway my day church have made me pondered and wonder about some stuff in my life... oh i also realised that dream(not the sleeping ones) but goal, aim and target are actually very important in our life...it is one of the powerful factor that drives us... trust me i have realised how much strength it can give to oneself... along that comes hope in our dreams so that we will never give up... am i making sense??? Because personally i always make it a habit to remind myself of the dreams i have and obliviously work towards it!!! however along the way there bound to be people who tries really really hard to make you feel that you don't matter at all or tear you down... but always remember that at the end of every storm, there will always be a rainbow...hold on to the strength and peace in you...

Anyway i feel sooo deep out of a sudden... but i mean what i write...

so moving on to something more daily and stuff you can ponder about...


ok so short update... tomorrow is econs paper i wanna do well for it!!! i actually love econs alot now...possible my my favourite subject among the H2... wanna do well for it... following that accounts paper on Thursday and A level Chinese oral!!! ahhhhhh

my theory is "Do your best and let God do the rest..."



watch this... life changing :)

Anyway i have to get going... take care guys and God bless y'all!!!

"Here in Your courtswhere I'm close to Your throne,
i found where i belong..."

2 more paper to go...

Alright actually believe it or not somehow i am left with 2 more papers to complete... COOL!!!!

Hmmm guess i will take a short break after that by meeting my secondary school friends... then gonna pick myself up and start practices my math and chinese... :) These few weeks have kinda been terapeutic for me... i think the business have help me realise how much i could do... I have also hanged out with friends that i never knew we could actually clic... :) Tomorrow is Sunday... I will be going to Church!!! YES!!! i have not been sttending since i came back from Beijing... Really miss my friends there...

Truly i am generally happy with myself at the moment...just taking a short break before i get back in stride...

"I pray You'll be our eyes... in times when we dont know..."

EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok exams technically have started yesterday... some papers are really tough!!! for example Mother Tounge!!! this particular passage really made me feel like slapping someone!!! something about son washing the fathers feet then dirty and everything GRRRRRRR!!!!!! basically throughout the entire exam i was writing my reflections... K BEST!!!!!!!

Anyway another really made me quite frustrated is the my Cam's memory card... AHHHHH 900 hundred photos taken in Beijing and now i cant open... but i know i am suppose to bring it down to the service center to get it done... but nooooooo time!!!! never mind next week:)

Well... what else...erm.... i know that my recent blog has been quite empty...NOT that i am leading a boring life... just that i really dont have much time to update... but anyway here is a short one....

now i am currently having exams which will end around next week... YAY!!!

Serious/personal stuff
Ok as you guys already know or even if you didn't you will know it now...That i am A HUGE GIGANTIC, ENORMOUS Fan of MARIAH CAREY!!!!!!!!

And recently i must i have don't some thinking about my future and stuff but sometimes i just have this fear in my heart that i don't know what is going to happen in the future... somehow the uncertain makes me nervous... because think of it, time flies before you know it you would probably be working somewhere at some time and then probably you will recount to the times when you ponder about the future... plus i kinda felt oppressed someways and Thankfully I found this song titled "Cant Take That Away" by Mariah Carey... and it really kinda brought courage and peace into my heart... seriously go listen to it... Those of you guys who are being put down by the people around or feel that you don't matter at all because of what people say of you... but always remember that there's a light in you that shines brightly, they can try but they cant take it away and The Lord will guide you where you need to go... Trust me it has became my Anthem for strength... apparently it is also called "Mariah's Theme"...

They can try but they cant take that away from me...

Ok 5,006,000 and 32 million years later...

Well it has been really really long about 2 months... Well anyway here an update...



Month of April

Well this month is my birthday and we also celebrated a few others birthday... hjmm what else happened???????? well i kinda forgot already...



Anyway in general, school has been quite stressful i would say..but no doubts i will not allow it to bring me down... As usual i am still all over Mariah Carey.... Love ya GIRL!!!



MAY

Well i went this is more recent so i can remeber it clearly... I went to BEijing and I must say it is really fun there... I really like the tour guide she has been so nice to all of us. It's quite funny coming to think of it, i actually thought that there would still be cows or some other farm animal strolling across streets there!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA hilarious... Actually i would say Beijing is really catching with Singapore... There is this place called "The Place" man the shops there are some what paragon like just that it is nicer there and classier... I really want to go back there...



Food wise man the peking duck is just fantastic!!! i am not a fan of duck but now i am... kinda feel sad for the duckies that day... but still delicious!!! ;)



Scenery... WOOW!!!! you should got there and see it for yourself... picture can only show this much but when you are there it is totally different!!! I love You Beijing....



Besides the bad air there and traffic... Beijing is really fun to go to!!! but still i still love my home land Singapore more than any other country.... :)



In General

Well life has been in a hustle and bustle state... which has been good in some ways and bad in some ways... Good stuff is that i am so busy that the bad stuff have been covered... bad stuff is that i have really not been spending my quiet time... i kinda feel that i am lagging behind in my studies.. "whatever does not kill me, makes me stronger"...

Another Sunday...

Well today i have realised that there are actually loads of people who care for me...which i am grateful for like TOTALLY!!! From my school friends, all the way to church friends...They are just so nice and wonderful!!! I love you all!!! from the bottom of my heart...

Well had some time to "dig" around the house for some memories... and i found photo of me as a baby. Super cute...HAHA!!!! Really i mean it...

its amazing what photo can remind us of...so much that we have tossed to the back of our mind...
It actually reminded how much my mum have work to raise me up to who i am today... I love you mummy!!!

It kinda almost brought tears to my eyes thinking of the blessings and protection from the most high who has given us grace to pull through these tough times...Thank You Jesus...

Well now that i found this album, i bet there is loads more to be found!!!! YAY!!! New play ground...

A new week ahead... a fresh start... a new beginning... i cant wait...

"Lord thanks for all the love, strength and grace that abound with me from you. No words can ever express how thankful i am. I belong to You. So much i wanna express to You that sometimes i am lost for words... but one thing that i desire, and its to be with You always...Amen"

"What a hope i found,
more faithful than a mother,
it would break my heart,
to ever lose each other"

Well a few days has past...

Well today i went to Sakura with my friends and went over to my other friends house to celebrate her birthday...

Ok tomorrow i am meeting my friend to attend church... sudden urge just fill me to draw near to Him once more... after the G.A.P production i realise that i have drawn closer to Him... but i wanna draw nearer...

I see my friends going through different stuff in their life's and i see it clearly as i stand at their side... but i do have my question about things... at times even though i can relate to them but i know that it is not right how am i suppose to tell them??? when such feeling flow within me...
I fear, i ask and i trust that grace with carry me through...

God i ask of You,
to give a heart that's ever true...
one with no deceit and lies but beautiful.
With ever desire of loving You...

Great time we had...

Thank You God so much for the success and everything He has done today...

Easter Drama
Well it is fantastic!!! I must say it has touched so many people...this is frankly my first time realising how powerful a drama can be... no doubt i always knew that songs and music are extremely/one of the most powerful tools to convey God's message but i never knew that Drama can be so powerful too... Thank God for all the gifts and talents he has given us... Thank You Jesus...

Well i am also grateful and happy for the salvations...
"Lord i do also pray that my friends will come to know You too... i know that they have felt You today... but God i know that the seed is plant and i ask that Jesus use me to flourish the seed in him... Thank You Lord"

"Lord tomorrow is going to be a long day, and i do know that i have decisions to make... but i know that Your hands is always with me... even though at times You may withdraw Your hands from me to test me but i know that Your eyes are always fixed on me... help me decide what's good for me and give me wisdom to discern what's right from wrong... Make me one with Jesus... Let my hearts beat with yours...Words can never express what You have done for me these few days Jesus...even though it may still seems like i have some stuff that i need to correct but i know with You i have sufficient Grace to pull through... Thanks Jesus, Thanks for everything...You are my Superhero..."

Nope i have not forsake my blog...hehe

Well last post was like 3rd of March or something... Well i didn't post because there was so much stuff happening...

Well this is what's happening the whole of March
1) Firstly starting with band camp
2)Live 2008(of which i didn't went because i fell sick)
3)Project work
4)SYC second audition this coming Wednesday
5)Trancendance
6)K pop
7)Easter drama( of which i look forward to most!!!) DO come and watch... people have put in loads of effort and man it will pay off :)
8)Studies
9)Diploma's (During the march holidays)

I know i know that that's lots of stuff...i know that i have to also learn to cope with it... and i actually i am starting to cope...

Ok there's lots of birthdays this month and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all of you guys!!!! Love you all...

Band
Well thank God we have lots of pre U 1... and band enthusiast they are! New member means renewed hope for US!!! YAY!!!

SYC
Ok the coming Wednesday i am going to have my second audition, of which as usual i am freaking out as the days draws nearer... God i so totally need Your help... I have some plans with regards to SYC... I pray that Lord will show my His way...

(ok was planning to type about more happenings but i will skip them)

Good Friday and resurrection Sunday
I was really touched when one of my friend actually smsed me in that morning that the truth have sunk in, Jesus died 2 thousand years ago For me and You... Went to church with my friends...

Well now for my words from my heart...
I don't know why that within these 3 days something has happened to me, in a good way...
Words cant really explain how this feels... but it feels good some how... I just feel so comforted... Weeks before this, things weren't going right for me, studies were bad and i just feel so lost that i don't know what to do... I wanna cry but for once it is so hard to... All i could do is to maybe drown myself in all the activities around... and to some i may seems perfectly fine taking things within my stride but it is not as it seems...

Emptiness was what i was feeling, trying to put on smiles to everyone... That's maybe why i needed loads of solitude from everything around me... i knew that something was missing but i didn't know how to get rid of that feeling... My hearts was filled with fear and loneliness, something i remember feeling only till i was Sec 3... I know that i have great friends but somehow that was not enough... I just wanna fly away...

But all this came to an end within the last week or so... i realise that at times i have been so heavily clouded by so many things that i forgot who was the One who has given me all this things/gifts/ friends and every everything in my life... It is not the Easter service or the church moments but it is the very facts i have to return to my maker and stand in awe!

This goes out to this very special group of people... People from G.A.P i wanna say thanks to you guys with all my heart... you have no idea how you have impacted me... you are the guys i wanna remember always...

With this being said and done, it is not that everything will become a ray of sunshine but i know that i can face it with the grace given to me...

"You calm the storms and you give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fold
You still my heart when you take my breath away
Would you take me in take me deeper now
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by You
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by You
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this"