hi there almost a week

ok so there will be a chalet next Monday and Tuesday which is sooo totally COOL!!! I MEAN IS IT COOL OR WHAT???!!! chalet before start of school??? WOW!!! love it...ok so here a short update on what has been happening for this entire week...

This Week
Ok so things has not really been solved and i mean emotionally and in almost aspect of my life...which totally is frustrating...dang when will this stuff ever end??? however deep inside i know what i am missing and it is the connection that i once had with God...(ok by this point to some of your it may seem weird, that i am too religious, or i am just "caught up"with the "Jesus stuff") but let me tell you guys and i am serious, i may have every regret in my life but there is one that i will never regret and that is knowing Jesus in my life and having Him as my beloved Saviour...ok i by now you may be thinking or wondering what made me sooo intensely in love with God??? am i right??? Simply because He is REAL!!! you have to sooo totally have to experience His touch to know it...and what's best is that all you need is ASK and you will receive...

You may also at the same time for those who know that i am not doing well spiritually or even in my life pondering what happened that made me thirst for God even more...

Life Story
ok simply this remember that there was this point of time in my life that i was really broken and strucked down by all my circumstances, friends were leaving me, things were going soooo freaking bad...life simply SUCKS!!! Then i went for the festival of praise and God really touched me deep within and i still remember tears just flow profusely from my eyes...i question myself why am i crying like a baby??? like i am 16 that time...but i remember with my hands lifted with every sincerity, with my mouth sang in every breath i had and all i wanted was that God would make a way for me...i really didn't know what to do...i even had problems with my mum...i really had no one to turn to....and i am serious it is really frustrating....but then as i praise the Lord, this very tangible presence just encompassed me...AWESOME!!!! that made me feel like even if the world hates me, despise me, isolates me...or even all my friends dump me for some lame reasons...even if my mum forsakes me...i know that my future rest well in the hands of the Almighty God...and AMEN to that...for the Lord says "i will never leave you nor forsake you" so from that day on i made a simple prayer that every time when life gets too "high"or "cloud 9" and forgot all about God's love for me...i ask that He would help me by putting Him first in my life...

now you may be thinking why put Him first well...if you have not noticed(well at least i have) that my friends, parents, and in fact people around me failed me at least once or more(but that's not the whole point) so knowing that He who never fail is in control of my life just simply gives me security and in His hands i know that i am safe... even though at times i fail him but yet he forgives... well there are alot more that i wanna share with you guys but it is late already...so just ask and i wont hesitate to share more with your...I JUST HOPE THAT EVERYONE COULD EXPERIENCE WHAT I EXPERIENCE...GOD's LOVE...

ok video for this post "Here in my life" by Hillsong