Tuesday, December 18, 2007

ok now finally i can get stuff from my heart...

Well today i have had the whole day staying at home...didn't went out...maybe i should have...to avoid all those thoughts that are so distressing...

I don't know why but i feel like being tied down by something...my heart just wanna break free...mean while i am pretty confused with some stuff...don't know how tell to express...i really cant stand it when it is so hard to even express that's so natural...emotions...

Today i had thoughts of turning back to what i was doing in the past...how would life felt...i am quite tired being sooo vulnerable...sometimes i feel like i am easily brought down by people's influence or even words... i find it hard to balance...which is something that i really now...balancing emotions is important...

But to think of it, being a Christian, i know that God has always been with me...the friends He have placed in my life are just really nice...even if there are some nasty ones, i know for sure they will make me stronger...because like Mariah Carey once said "Whatever does not kill you, makes you stronger..." So i know that God's plan are to prosper me...

"Lord sometimes i know i have drifts away from You...
but still Your gaze have always been on me, day and night...
Lord sometimes i feel so small in this big big world,
that there are constants challenges i fear i cant handle,
and then i remember Your word of love and faith
Your promises that never fades..."

God will make a way when there seems to be no way...

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