Ok a short update before i go to sleep...hehe

OK GUESS WHAT????!!!!!!! Esther and i are going to perform for the Christmas concert!!! YAY!!! I mean it is sooo cool!!! i really used to be extremely nervous in the past when it comes to performing...especially singing...but this time after the Art festival and teachers day performance it has really boost my confidence...so i am like "LET'S DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN!!!" HEHE sooo today in band we have kinda decided on 2 songs "Oh holy night" and "O come all ye faithful"...i am really gonna get myself prepared for this more than the last!!! I really wanna thank God and MI for this chance to do something that i really love...singing...

Ok i also wanna thank the friends around me for being there for me...thanks you guys so much...i really love you all especially my close secondary school friends and my class mates and MI friends...really love you all....

"Last but not least i thank you Father for Your unfailing love"

Here in Your courts
Where I'm close to Your throne
I found where i...belong...

Ok so today was quite fun ya...

Summing up
Ok like recently i have learned one thing from the circumstances around me and that is that many times people come and go often...what i mean is friends...i mean different faces come and go...things are just changing and moving quite fast...i am just afraid that i cant catch up with this pace...i am just fearful that things will turn out to hurt...so many stuff recently and today even though i came back from church but found out some stuff that really spoiled my mood...i just really hope that there is a shortcut not to everything but at least to some stuff...something i find quite complicated like friendship...like i once spoke to my classmate...i really hope that i can sift out the people around me quickly...in a sense like who are the true friends or some of them may even be of a superficial friendship...but i have also come to understand that, that is not always possible because if that is possible, then life would be boring...and we would not be able to use our God given ability to distinguish...

i am saying this is because i am one who really desire true friends...to some that may not even exits in their dictionary...but i always believe in efforts...if you try, you never know what life holds...because it is quite sad to see friends that you once treasured come and go...caught up in their activities and all...

However i learned that again putting all our hopes in man...will result in disappointment...don't get me wrong, i am not saying that putting trust in friends is bad or something...but i am trying to say that all of us have our failures...be it we feel that our friends have failed us or in turn we may have failed our friends...but to Him be all glory and praise who never fails and forsake...

"Father, i pray that Your grace will abide in me...that when i fear, You will shelter me...i pray for my friends to find release in any obstacles they face...Lord all of them are precious to me...keep them close to Your tender loving heart...that they will find comfort and rest in You... Lord cleanse my lips that my sacrifices of praise will be pleasing to Your ears...Lord that when me hearts fails You will be with me...carry me Jesus, through the trials of this earth that i may know i am not alone...Spirit of God, i plea for Your fresh anointing to fill me as i face a new phase in my life... My Saviour, God, Lord, Sheperd and Father to You be all glory and honour from now till forever...Amen"

Pretty pretty me...haha

I AM DOING THIS FOR "mum"

Ok yesterday for the acting thingy, mum help me did my make up and it was really fun plus she kept on saying i was pretty...which made me felt one kind...but moving on i do have to say that putting on make up was really fun...hehe...THANKS MUM FOR YOUR PRETTY MAKE UP....HEHE

Ok today is quite a tiring day

hi there today i just finish acting for my friends project...well i am certainly say that it is really cool and a brand new experience!!! really thank my friend for this opportunity...i also realise that dancing and acting ain't really something as easy as it seems...but hey this is my first and IT IS FUN!!!!!!!!

ok sooo today was really a day where i felt release...i mean my mind was not pondering about all the unhappy stuff...to know that friends care and concern really warms my heart...
i am really happy at my current status...i also really hope that i can get promoted and do well for my exams...

Ok sooo i am quite tired and will be sleeping early tonight...sooo will post more maybe tomorrow or the day after...

Video for the day "May it be" by Celtic Women



"Lord i sing praises to Thee"

Thanks to you...

Hi there the chalet was really fun plus i have learned how to play majong!!!sooo fun but i dont want to be addicted to it...soo no worries...hehe...well and i just woke up from my sleep...because me and my few other friends didn't really sleep...only for like what 50 min in the morning 8 plus...but amazingly this is the time where i dont feel that tired despite not sleeping...Yup overall the whole thing was fun...plus really love barbequing alot...

ok i would like to take this chance to thank someone really special...thanks for your sharing today sooo much...really helped lighten my troubles...really wanna do this more often...thanks for your advises so much...thank dude...

ok video for today..."Saviour King" by Hillsong


"Lord my heart cries for You"

hi there almost a week

ok so there will be a chalet next Monday and Tuesday which is sooo totally COOL!!! I MEAN IS IT COOL OR WHAT???!!! chalet before start of school??? WOW!!! love it...ok so here a short update on what has been happening for this entire week...

This Week
Ok so things has not really been solved and i mean emotionally and in almost aspect of my life...which totally is frustrating...dang when will this stuff ever end??? however deep inside i know what i am missing and it is the connection that i once had with God...(ok by this point to some of your it may seem weird, that i am too religious, or i am just "caught up"with the "Jesus stuff") but let me tell you guys and i am serious, i may have every regret in my life but there is one that i will never regret and that is knowing Jesus in my life and having Him as my beloved Saviour...ok i by now you may be thinking or wondering what made me sooo intensely in love with God??? am i right??? Simply because He is REAL!!! you have to sooo totally have to experience His touch to know it...and what's best is that all you need is ASK and you will receive...

You may also at the same time for those who know that i am not doing well spiritually or even in my life pondering what happened that made me thirst for God even more...

Life Story
ok simply this remember that there was this point of time in my life that i was really broken and strucked down by all my circumstances, friends were leaving me, things were going soooo freaking bad...life simply SUCKS!!! Then i went for the festival of praise and God really touched me deep within and i still remember tears just flow profusely from my eyes...i question myself why am i crying like a baby??? like i am 16 that time...but i remember with my hands lifted with every sincerity, with my mouth sang in every breath i had and all i wanted was that God would make a way for me...i really didn't know what to do...i even had problems with my mum...i really had no one to turn to....and i am serious it is really frustrating....but then as i praise the Lord, this very tangible presence just encompassed me...AWESOME!!!! that made me feel like even if the world hates me, despise me, isolates me...or even all my friends dump me for some lame reasons...even if my mum forsakes me...i know that my future rest well in the hands of the Almighty God...and AMEN to that...for the Lord says "i will never leave you nor forsake you" so from that day on i made a simple prayer that every time when life gets too "high"or "cloud 9" and forgot all about God's love for me...i ask that He would help me by putting Him first in my life...

now you may be thinking why put Him first well...if you have not noticed(well at least i have) that my friends, parents, and in fact people around me failed me at least once or more(but that's not the whole point) so knowing that He who never fail is in control of my life just simply gives me security and in His hands i know that i am safe... even though at times i fail him but yet he forgives... well there are alot more that i wanna share with you guys but it is late already...so just ask and i wont hesitate to share more with your...I JUST HOPE THAT EVERYONE COULD EXPERIENCE WHAT I EXPERIENCE...GOD's LOVE...

ok video for this post "Here in my life" by Hillsong

Hi there it's another beautiful day!!

a short update about yesterday...



Yesterday

i basically met up with one of my friend and we went to city hall to meet up with another...the three of us went have lunch at Sake Sushi then another friends came and join us..after that we went window shopping...we wanted to play pool at bukit timah but i guess because we spent our money on stuff then decided not to head down...i felt really mean though because yesterday most of..in fact all of them had their slip of tongue and i(being the mean one) was laughing over it again and again...HAHA it was really cute...trust you should hear it yourself...HAHA...



that all for yesterday...



Today

well i am having some throat dryness thing going on for the past few days not sure why??? guess i didn't drink enough water...plus i have gained WEIGHT!!!!!AHHHHHHHH!!!!!! not sure is it a good thing or not...



Summing up

As you guys know that recently i have not been feeling good about stuff around soo i sincerely hope that your will like kinda understand...it is not really easy going through these stuff and trust me i don't enjoy been "emo" that is like the last thing i wanna be..life is just too short to accommodate any sadness...agree?so i decided to let myself be happy and cheerful as usual...

ok song for today..."Carwash" by Anthony Callea




"Made my glad" by Hillsong

"I will bless the Lord forever
I will trust Him at all times
He has delivered me from all fear
He has set my feet upon a rock
I will not be moved
And I'll say of the Lord

You are my shield, my strength
My portion, deliverer
My shelter, strong tower
My very present help in time of need

Whom have I in heaven but You
There's none I desire beside You

You have made me glad
And I'll say of the Lord
You are my shield, my strength
My portion, deliverer
My shelter, strong tower
My very present help in time of need"