EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok exams technically have started yesterday... some papers are really tough!!! for example Mother Tounge!!! this particular passage really made me feel like slapping someone!!! something about son washing the fathers feet then dirty and everything GRRRRRRR!!!!!! basically throughout the entire exam i was writing my reflections... K BEST!!!!!!!

Anyway another really made me quite frustrated is the my Cam's memory card... AHHHHH 900 hundred photos taken in Beijing and now i cant open... but i know i am suppose to bring it down to the service center to get it done... but nooooooo time!!!! never mind next week:)

Well... what else...erm.... i know that my recent blog has been quite empty...NOT that i am leading a boring life... just that i really dont have much time to update... but anyway here is a short one....

now i am currently having exams which will end around next week... YAY!!!

Serious/personal stuff
Ok as you guys already know or even if you didn't you will know it now...That i am A HUGE GIGANTIC, ENORMOUS Fan of MARIAH CAREY!!!!!!!!

And recently i must i have don't some thinking about my future and stuff but sometimes i just have this fear in my heart that i don't know what is going to happen in the future... somehow the uncertain makes me nervous... because think of it, time flies before you know it you would probably be working somewhere at some time and then probably you will recount to the times when you ponder about the future... plus i kinda felt oppressed someways and Thankfully I found this song titled "Cant Take That Away" by Mariah Carey... and it really kinda brought courage and peace into my heart... seriously go listen to it... Those of you guys who are being put down by the people around or feel that you don't matter at all because of what people say of you... but always remember that there's a light in you that shines brightly, they can try but they cant take it away and The Lord will guide you where you need to go... Trust me it has became my Anthem for strength... apparently it is also called "Mariah's Theme"...

They can try but they cant take that away from me...

Ok 5,006,000 and 32 million years later...

Well it has been really really long about 2 months... Well anyway here an update...



Month of April

Well this month is my birthday and we also celebrated a few others birthday... hjmm what else happened???????? well i kinda forgot already...



Anyway in general, school has been quite stressful i would say..but no doubts i will not allow it to bring me down... As usual i am still all over Mariah Carey.... Love ya GIRL!!!



MAY

Well i went this is more recent so i can remeber it clearly... I went to BEijing and I must say it is really fun there... I really like the tour guide she has been so nice to all of us. It's quite funny coming to think of it, i actually thought that there would still be cows or some other farm animal strolling across streets there!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA hilarious... Actually i would say Beijing is really catching with Singapore... There is this place called "The Place" man the shops there are some what paragon like just that it is nicer there and classier... I really want to go back there...



Food wise man the peking duck is just fantastic!!! i am not a fan of duck but now i am... kinda feel sad for the duckies that day... but still delicious!!! ;)



Scenery... WOOW!!!! you should got there and see it for yourself... picture can only show this much but when you are there it is totally different!!! I love You Beijing....



Besides the bad air there and traffic... Beijing is really fun to go to!!! but still i still love my home land Singapore more than any other country.... :)



In General

Well life has been in a hustle and bustle state... which has been good in some ways and bad in some ways... Good stuff is that i am so busy that the bad stuff have been covered... bad stuff is that i have really not been spending my quiet time... i kinda feel that i am lagging behind in my studies.. "whatever does not kill me, makes me stronger"...

Another Sunday...

Well today i have realised that there are actually loads of people who care for me...which i am grateful for like TOTALLY!!! From my school friends, all the way to church friends...They are just so nice and wonderful!!! I love you all!!! from the bottom of my heart...

Well had some time to "dig" around the house for some memories... and i found photo of me as a baby. Super cute...HAHA!!!! Really i mean it...

its amazing what photo can remind us of...so much that we have tossed to the back of our mind...
It actually reminded how much my mum have work to raise me up to who i am today... I love you mummy!!!

It kinda almost brought tears to my eyes thinking of the blessings and protection from the most high who has given us grace to pull through these tough times...Thank You Jesus...

Well now that i found this album, i bet there is loads more to be found!!!! YAY!!! New play ground...

A new week ahead... a fresh start... a new beginning... i cant wait...

"Lord thanks for all the love, strength and grace that abound with me from you. No words can ever express how thankful i am. I belong to You. So much i wanna express to You that sometimes i am lost for words... but one thing that i desire, and its to be with You always...Amen"

"What a hope i found,
more faithful than a mother,
it would break my heart,
to ever lose each other"

Well a few days has past...

Well today i went to Sakura with my friends and went over to my other friends house to celebrate her birthday...

Ok tomorrow i am meeting my friend to attend church... sudden urge just fill me to draw near to Him once more... after the G.A.P production i realise that i have drawn closer to Him... but i wanna draw nearer...

I see my friends going through different stuff in their life's and i see it clearly as i stand at their side... but i do have my question about things... at times even though i can relate to them but i know that it is not right how am i suppose to tell them??? when such feeling flow within me...
I fear, i ask and i trust that grace with carry me through...

God i ask of You,
to give a heart that's ever true...
one with no deceit and lies but beautiful.
With ever desire of loving You...

Great time we had...

Thank You God so much for the success and everything He has done today...

Easter Drama
Well it is fantastic!!! I must say it has touched so many people...this is frankly my first time realising how powerful a drama can be... no doubt i always knew that songs and music are extremely/one of the most powerful tools to convey God's message but i never knew that Drama can be so powerful too... Thank God for all the gifts and talents he has given us... Thank You Jesus...

Well i am also grateful and happy for the salvations...
"Lord i do also pray that my friends will come to know You too... i know that they have felt You today... but God i know that the seed is plant and i ask that Jesus use me to flourish the seed in him... Thank You Lord"

"Lord tomorrow is going to be a long day, and i do know that i have decisions to make... but i know that Your hands is always with me... even though at times You may withdraw Your hands from me to test me but i know that Your eyes are always fixed on me... help me decide what's good for me and give me wisdom to discern what's right from wrong... Make me one with Jesus... Let my hearts beat with yours...Words can never express what You have done for me these few days Jesus...even though it may still seems like i have some stuff that i need to correct but i know with You i have sufficient Grace to pull through... Thanks Jesus, Thanks for everything...You are my Superhero..."

Nope i have not forsake my blog...hehe

Well last post was like 3rd of March or something... Well i didn't post because there was so much stuff happening...

Well this is what's happening the whole of March
1) Firstly starting with band camp
2)Live 2008(of which i didn't went because i fell sick)
3)Project work
4)SYC second audition this coming Wednesday
5)Trancendance
6)K pop
7)Easter drama( of which i look forward to most!!!) DO come and watch... people have put in loads of effort and man it will pay off :)
8)Studies
9)Diploma's (During the march holidays)

I know i know that that's lots of stuff...i know that i have to also learn to cope with it... and i actually i am starting to cope...

Ok there's lots of birthdays this month and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all of you guys!!!! Love you all...

Band
Well thank God we have lots of pre U 1... and band enthusiast they are! New member means renewed hope for US!!! YAY!!!

SYC
Ok the coming Wednesday i am going to have my second audition, of which as usual i am freaking out as the days draws nearer... God i so totally need Your help... I have some plans with regards to SYC... I pray that Lord will show my His way...

(ok was planning to type about more happenings but i will skip them)

Good Friday and resurrection Sunday
I was really touched when one of my friend actually smsed me in that morning that the truth have sunk in, Jesus died 2 thousand years ago For me and You... Went to church with my friends...

Well now for my words from my heart...
I don't know why that within these 3 days something has happened to me, in a good way...
Words cant really explain how this feels... but it feels good some how... I just feel so comforted... Weeks before this, things weren't going right for me, studies were bad and i just feel so lost that i don't know what to do... I wanna cry but for once it is so hard to... All i could do is to maybe drown myself in all the activities around... and to some i may seems perfectly fine taking things within my stride but it is not as it seems...

Emptiness was what i was feeling, trying to put on smiles to everyone... That's maybe why i needed loads of solitude from everything around me... i knew that something was missing but i didn't know how to get rid of that feeling... My hearts was filled with fear and loneliness, something i remember feeling only till i was Sec 3... I know that i have great friends but somehow that was not enough... I just wanna fly away...

But all this came to an end within the last week or so... i realise that at times i have been so heavily clouded by so many things that i forgot who was the One who has given me all this things/gifts/ friends and every everything in my life... It is not the Easter service or the church moments but it is the very facts i have to return to my maker and stand in awe!

This goes out to this very special group of people... People from G.A.P i wanna say thanks to you guys with all my heart... you have no idea how you have impacted me... you are the guys i wanna remember always...

With this being said and done, it is not that everything will become a ray of sunshine but i know that i can face it with the grace given to me...

"You calm the storms and you give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fold
You still my heart when you take my breath away
Would you take me in take me deeper now
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by You
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by You
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this"

ok its been quite awhile...

Well it is about 12.17am... now i am just feeling bored and though there is so much things to be done, i just cant seem to focus and i wonder why???

but moving on...i kinda look forward to tomorrow's G.A.P meeting where people with love for Christ meet up after school...which is like....so totally cool!!!! Like I know right...

So today i just went to sign up for the Live 2008! it is a competition something like talent time thingy but the good thing is that it's for CHARITY!!!!! great and great prizes to be won... so i really wanna take this opportunity for me to just open myself up for exposure and boost my confidence of being on stage alone...so there is a audition next Saturday and i really hope that i get through...really happy...

next school band, well I am really glad that there is so many people who came to join band...thank God for a the enthusiastic pre u 1!!! HALLELUJAH!!!! so now we can focus more on keeping them and improving them...

Ok next SYC just had their performance on SAT and it is a Blast!!! Thank GOD!!!

"Lord, i know Your grace is sufficient in all my circumstances...Amen"