WOW ITS BEEN LONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow it has been really long since i have blogged...well anyway i will sum it up quick before i head to bed :)

Lots of stuff and happenings recently, especially with everything and start of school, new and more exposure to everything around me...


Singing/Music
Well for some of your who don't know, I got into SYC!!!(Singapore Youth Choir!!!!) Grateful am i to God for this opportunity...well i definitely have lots to learn, since i have practically no choir background... so ya tomorrow is my 3rd practice... so hopefully that my throat infection will completely cure and will not fall sick tomorrow...because i am feeling not really well now... Lord by Your strips, i am healed...

Band
well Chinese new year is coming soon, and we are starting to practicing for it...and i must say i have never come across a piece as tough as one the pieces i am playing for CNY... So i must really start practicing... Ensemble pieces are really grate too...

School

As for school wise i am quite happy that i am picking up fast towards studying...i still remember the first 2 weeks was really horrible...lot of stuff happened really got quite stressed... But thanks God, now i am back on track!!!

Diploma also started too and i hope that this time i will be more focused to pass this module...

so that all for now...

"Lord help me live out Thy will...Amen"

And our love goes round and round

way up high, a joy ride...

Thank God that my fever left :)

Ok like on Friday night i caught a fever 39.2 degree Celsius felt really terrible and today i am feeling a whole lot better... Thank God for it :)

Well i went Church today and the service was GREAT!!! and a book written by my senior pastor David Lim(cost $15/+) was given out to everyone who came for that service FREE!!! So cool!!! We had communion too!!! what an amazing way to start the new year...

Ok tomorrow i will be going for jab for my legs...as some of you guys know, my leg have suffered from tendon inflammation... i got it from my job and seriously it has stopped me from doing some of my favourite sport like running and not to mention even walking becomes a chore...well after a year it will end tomorrow after the jab...i really wanna do well in my napha(well not sure how to spell it)...plus exercise...not that i am a lazy bum(although i can get a little at times :) but my leg really hurts at time that even walking becomes a problem...but anyway i really pray that my leg will completely heal completely at least before the napha and the jab will not result in any side effect... God bless me

Ok another thing i wanna mention is that my msn account is gone...not because of anything but because i forgot my password...HAHA so now my new msn account is zannyzanezane@hotmail.com yup that my msn email... so just add me up :)

As most of you guys know that my passion for singing just shot up like a hundred thousand times and only if i had a more time i would take up all of these...i have sign up for audition in all the choir i know...i really wanna get into a choir any choir but especially the Singapore Youth Choir...i really wanna get into this choir but i know that it is a really established choir...so i don't think they might accept me since i have no choir background but i still hope they do let me go for a audition at least...because they have asked for my background info and i emailed them but have not responded whether i can go for their audition...so now i have 2 other choir that replied to ask me to drop by for an audition...so i really don't know what to do...plus i have my church choir...i really wanna continue badly... so i am really confused now... Lord show me Your way...

Ok will update more next time :) God bless...

Wow it's been quite a long time since i have last blogged!!!

(HAHA just woke up from a nap) Well i would like to wish you guys Merry Christmas(even though it is over) and Happy new year...

Christmas
Well during Christmas eve i went over to my friends house to stay overnight...well it was fun, we played MJ and Xbox and all...enjoyable...

But some how last Christmas i still felt something missing. Not really what is it... it didn't seem as fun as last last year(i mean 2006)

New Year
As for new year i stayed at home because i have been going out everyday and became quite exhausted. So i celebrated new year at home :)

New year resolution
Well i guess for me year 2008 will be an extremely busy year also a year that either i will make it or break...well obliviously i will MAKE IT!!! With You all things are possible...

My new year prayer
"Lord keep my visions in sight,
let me not get distracted...
keep me on solid ground,
that i will not stumble...
Give me faith to believe in myself,
and hope in You that never fails...
Help me love my neighbour as myself,
as i also guard my heart from negative influences...
Even as i walk through the storms,
help me remember the first love i have in You...
So Lord after all is said and done,
I know my dreams will come true...Amen"

ok now finally i can get stuff from my heart...

Well today i have had the whole day staying at home...didn't went out...maybe i should have...to avoid all those thoughts that are so distressing...

I don't know why but i feel like being tied down by something...my heart just wanna break free...mean while i am pretty confused with some stuff...don't know how tell to express...i really cant stand it when it is so hard to even express that's so natural...emotions...

Today i had thoughts of turning back to what i was doing in the past...how would life felt...i am quite tired being sooo vulnerable...sometimes i feel like i am easily brought down by people's influence or even words... i find it hard to balance...which is something that i really now...balancing emotions is important...

But to think of it, being a Christian, i know that God has always been with me...the friends He have placed in my life are just really nice...even if there are some nasty ones, i know for sure they will make me stronger...because like Mariah Carey once said "Whatever does not kill you, makes you stronger..." So i know that God's plan are to prosper me...

"Lord sometimes i know i have drifts away from You...
but still Your gaze have always been on me, day and night...
Lord sometimes i feel so small in this big big world,
that there are constants challenges i fear i cant handle,
and then i remember Your word of love and faith
Your promises that never fades..."

God will make a way when there seems to be no way...

after band concert...

Ok months of practice and awaiting...finally on the 15th of dec it came the final showdown...
Though it may not be like a Esplanade performance but one thing i can say is that, we have put in loads of effort and this is our first performance without collaboration... For that it was really a great performance!!! A big shout out to all my Band buddies!!! "Keep up the good work!!! The next will definitely be better!!!"

Well i don't really know what else to blog...will blog more maybe later..

Performance is tomorrow...

Well tomorrow is the performance...i am still a little nervous but none the less i will give my best... I really hope that everything will turn out FANTASTIC!!! I know that it will...Amen!!!

Lord help me and be with me always...

After reharsals...

Well today rehearsal was great and fun...i also had a chance to rehearse my singing with the band and man i got to calm the nerves...God help me... But i know that it will get alot better by Saturday...

So now i am quite tired and tomorrow i have to go back to school for my talent management talk...Wow so excited and all... I really love MI!!!

Ok so as you guys know maybe some don't...i used to have tendon inflammation in my right heel...just when i thought it was getting better...now the pain coming back...really hope that one performance day i will get better...

Lord make me Holy Thine...